street culture

2006-05-11T11:20:00.000+08:00

have edited this post. ask me for my new blog add. =) thru msn or sms. or even frenster.
will stiu blog here once in a while. i dowan to abandon this blog though.

2006-05-11T10:15:00.000+08:00

it wasnt my wish too. but i donwan to look back anymore. the things i have been doing recently is so stupid. y do love always hurt. WHY. someone tell me why? hate to say these la. but life jus sucks big time when bad things happen again and again. WTF. i hate all these happening. from that stupid relation(dono whether was it really a real one) to failing my o levels and to my brother's accident which even lead to his death. i jus hate all these happening. but there's nth i can do can i? i feel devastated man. suddenly i jus lose all hope in life. things are jus so beyond prediction. nvr did expect my life to take such a big turn, YES A BIG BIG TURN. when i am onli 17. fuck. i lost all hope ever since my Bro ended his life journey. but again, dad and mum were the onli reasons that i am staying alive. plus brother wouldnt wan me to thk that way. and he always want me to study hard and be someone useful. i wont cry.(how fake)

my brother is such a innocent person... i believed that he havent did something bad enough to had his life taken away. i was the evil one. i can even curse my own brother.. didnt know was it bcos of me or wat. if it was, i will be his slave my nxt life.. together with dad and mum, jus that i am the slave of the family. i deeply regret. regretting is worst off then heart breaking.the pain is beyond description. nvr regret anything. u will wanna die. i really hope to see my brother again, is that ever possible again? I CANT BELIEVE HE'S DEAD. CAN ANYONE TELL ME HE'S NT. EVERYTIME I BOARD THE TRAIN AND PASS BY HIS ACCIDENT PLACE, I BREAK DOWN. ALL E TIME I CRY. I CANT TAKE IT. I CANT ACCEPT THE FACT. CAN NVR ACCEPT THE TRUTH. I HATE MYSELF. WHY DO I HAVE TO UNDERGO THIS KIND OF PAIN.. ITS UNFAIR... PLS LET ME SEE MY BROTHER AGAIN. I REALLY MISS HIM THAT BADLY.

2006-04-29T18:37:00.000+08:00

1 year of break up... stiu hanging on.

2006-04-29T18:21:00.000+08:00

jus feel that i have found out too many things.. i realise that the love i had put in the previous love was a wastage of time. i felt as if i was like a idiot. i didnt know why i had to put in that much love for him. when everything jus ended that fast. all the love had dissipated into thin air. i hate to say this but i no longer can trust the word, love. from stranger to frens to good frens to lovers to stranger again. i tot of nt confessing this love as i dowanna lose such a good fren. for my case, when 2 stranger met, they become gd frens, to BGR to strangers again. i find it stupid. y do guys have to always do that. even the cant continue anymore, we stiu could be frens... but i find that its impossible for him. till todae, i feel that it was somebody else telling me all the promises.... i wasnt him a all i thought. becos i trust him to make his words true... but all turn out to be fake. all love had disappeared all of a sudden. like me, i had disappeared in the world of happiness. drowning myself in agony and pain there's almost nth that can make me happy again except my parents and frens. my parents are the ones who keep me by their heart eceryday. no one else i can say. as for my brother... i am sure he keep all of us rite by his side.... although today is the day that he have to report to anoher dimension, but i stiu believe having him ard us, all e time.

i am in a lousy mood as usual.

2006-04-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

stiu havn gt over the past relationship and there's one more blow for me... life is nvr the same for me again... never without my brother... cant believed he is that strong yet he had to part all of us so soon... i miss him terribly. i regretted for nt cherishing him. i blame myself... i rant and i rant. but there's nthing which can heal me... i hate myself for nt cherishing my dearest brother until he's gone. i tear everyday and night, i cant get over his death... there's no way i can.... i regretted for all the quarrels... i wasnt given a chance to respect him again.. never knew how important was he to me until i relly lost him... brother, i really love u and miss u... wont u appear in my dreams again...? we all do... papa and mama miss u too.. hope u're doing alrite in another dimension. love u always.

mei.

...

2005-07-14T09:31:00.000+08:00

in fren house. yup thats y can blog...

miss my dearest loads.
its always u and me... =D
its so long since we last seen each other... but u're always on my mind..,.

116 days to o lvl....
guys... work hard.. i know its tough... yes its hell... but its only.... [a few months of hell to yrs of heaven...] its worth going thru the hell nw instead of going it thru later.... we have to be together working hard. 31 students yet 1 goal. 5N1. all the best. =)

1004. alwaes going on. its wat love is. my boi...

i noe i have been giving my frens all those shitty attitude. thanks for tolerating.. i jus... miss my dearest terribly... nth else.... yeah..

i'll wait for my dreams to come true.
its another point of view
turn back time and you'll find
you're always on my mind
you'll be here
and i've no fear
the time is right
just show me the light........

i've heard it... i knew it... i felt it...

xDDDD

2005-05-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

wooo. i am back here to blog. well well. my internet was having porbs. but nw i am back.

oh my. i miss my dear so much. =S hope he's nt so tired aft all. =D
well dear if u're reading my blog, jus wanna tell u i love u loadssssssss... LOADS.... XD
and hor. i miss u so muchhh lehhh. wonder hw will i pass my days without u.

well to my classmates. all the best to all of ya k? mid yr exams are here. and i know all of us are trying our best to do wat we can. but todae paper kinda sucks. down with fredrick yong. zzzzz.. nvm. i'll work on paper 2. nw scribbling ss notes like siao char bor. no choice. guess my history cant make it. have to get at least 35/50 for ss. i wanna pass. or rather get at least a b4 for that.

DEARRRRRRRRR, tmr marks e first month of our LOVE. =D sadly both of us aint free. but nvm. we still have a long way to go! we can celebrate anytime yeah? hmm. jus wanna tell u, no matter wat comes our way, i'll nvr give up on our love. and i love u for lifee. if theres forever, i'll love u forever. xDDDD our love is strong. we will walk our long long way ahead. my love for u nvr die. =D ai si ni le. xP

sian

2005-04-19T09:11:00.000+08:00

sorry guys. haven been blogging these days. internet tio suspension cos of my bro. zzz.. hmmm... in sch nw. thats why can blog. LOLOLLLOOL. well.. weather haven been good nowadays, do take care of urself okaes? XDD will be blogging ard if i hvae time. and exams are ard the corners. study hard ok!

to all my classmates.
lets work towards our goal together. poly is where we will be. =D
lets beat YISHUN TOWN SEC. WE WILL BE THE BEST BATCH OF 5NA EVER OK? WORK HARD TOWARDS OUR GOAL. 31 students. but 1 GOAL. take care dudes...

i miss euuu...

cya ard. tk care.

freak out

2005-04-07T15:14:00.000+08:00

don provoke me for this whole month.
in a seriously bad mood.
she miss her baby.
she miss him terribly.

******************* WARNING *******************
-KEEP OUT-

i took care of myself. but y do i stiu fall sick and made him worry.
its totally nonsense. am i breaking down?
no i cant. promise him that i wont break down b4 he come back.
i love u yes i do. and onli u.
haii.
came down with cough, sore throat, heavy flu.
low blood.zzzzzzz..

argh

2005-04-06T21:04:00.000+08:00

OMFG. i am so... zzzzzzz..... my oh my, my o lvl fee. shit. 11th april coming. die die die. jus die. my money? wat happen?! chi da bian la. haii. i am sick my dear parents. stop giving me stress. Zzzzzzzzz

haii

2005-04-06T17:05:00.000+08:00

haii. see a doc.. same old phrase. low blood count. under going too much stress.. shit u la. ya i am undergoing stress. but wat am i stressing about? i simply gave myself stress to keep life gg? oh freak. i made baby damn worried for me. liyan say he dono go where ler.. =( baby where're u. i very worried for u. hope u're safe and sound. i am really alrite ler.. haii. my damn it health. why am i so weak. haii. i'm sorry baby...

OMG

2005-04-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

hmmm, ytd dint blog. sorry yeah? nt in da mood for blogging also. besides brother at home. u all know la, he have the control over the computer. he wan use must give him use. cos ytd he nvr go out ytd.. hmmm, ytd kinda went mad. and it was TOTAL MADNESS. cos i wasnt feeling good or rather well since ytd. lol.. went to sch then was ok at first. smsed baby as usual. love him to bits.. xDD hmmm, dint noe why, kinda break down... it was DNT period. i walk out frm classroom down to DNT classrm, asraf went in first, then followed by me. he was toking to me, but i simply say. LEMME DIE. KILL ME MURDER ME. then ong thiam lye saw and heard. he was staring me and goes ah?! i bo hiew him, he ask me wat happen i simply ask him to shut up. =X bad sia me.. then when he was toking bout the DNT folio, i wasnt listening. i was so confused with dono wat. mayb i stressing myself too much that i gone mad? LOL. aft that he say, if u wanna rest i will excuse u. i simply said no. i don nid anyone to pity me. omg. ytd really went bonkers. aft he finish blabbering about the folio. he ask me to go to the back of the classroom to tok. he ask me wats wrong, suddely i squat on the ground, i cired. omg omg. why did i cry again. zzzz... i jus told him i am so stuck in sch. don even noe where to start studying. and i told him my hw all jam up. family stressing. and other things i also stress. sometimes i wondering wat i stressing lor. crazy... af that i jus keep on complaining....i miss my baby so much also. kailing nvr go sch ytd, nobody i can tok to.. haii, was crying on and on and on. aft that ok ler la.. but nt really ok. went to canteen to eat with yam and hendra and gayathri. plus that pervert. =X LOL. ask me personally who's that pervert LOL.. ate alot ytd. simi sai also eat. but healthy food ok. ate bread. then fish soup with rice. damn healthy rite. LOL. went back to class. dono wats wrong with me, keep screaming keep pretending to luff like i very happy. keep doing things which aint me. i dono wats wrong. sometimes i wonder. why i do these stupid things. why? WHY? haii. sorry guys, ytd u all have to tolerate my nonsense.. really sorry for that... and thanks for tolerating my noise.. and nonsense.. ^^ aft that went home.. was freaking cold lor.. i dono y. the weather nt good bahh.. reach home, use the com awhile kor went out and came back again. then i cannot use com ler. slept ard 10 last nite. early rite. really nt me man. zzzzzz....

ok todae's entry.
slept early last nite. why todae stiu tired.? why why? WHY? tired stiu nvm. reach school without any pain or wat la. very normal. but when i reach class i started screaming that i am feeling damn giddy. i close my eyes and rest, stiu giddy i open my eyes also giddy. tried standing up but very buay zai. keep wanting to fall. ltr sit down again. but assembly time ler. have to get out of class no matter wat leh. haiya. force myself to go out. awhile i was giddy but aft that ok ler.. then walk down to the courtyard. finish the national anthem and pledge. sit down listen to CYY and tok rubbish. ltr i feel damn giddy liao. when going back to class. i stood up and was abit shaky. but i stiu can tahan.. but reach class. i bth liao. the DIZZINESS IS KILLING ME. cried again. zzz recently love crying hor. dono why. ltr joanna and huilin ask me go home, go sickbay this and that. i jus say i dowan. i dowan go home cos dowan daddy mummy worry for me. dowan go sick bay cos ltr i scare very cold. i was already shivering under the fan liao lor. zzz... ltr healthcheck. gt my health booklet ler. gg to walk out, stood up and BANG. fall on my chair. jo was feeling my forefead and hand and my neck area. she say my body damn bloddy cold. and says my face is pale like a sheet of paper. yun dao. gt ani jialat mahh. then they urge me to go home. but nvr did so. walk out to the door ler, i bth cannot see anything. then sat outside the door. they were crowding ard me. guys i need FRESH AIR. but huiling help me up, joanna oso. they help me down the stairs. keep saying, don roll off the stairs HOR. i was like. zzzzzz.. don bloody crap with me. i ask them gt medicated oil boh jo say don have, sudddenly frm nowhere pop 1 bottle out.zzzzz... ERH WAIT. b4 walking down the stairs rite. i sitting at the door there.. joanna keep rubbing the medicated oil on my forehead and nose. wah bloody HOT u noe. wat i mean was very "spicy" . i cant open my eyes. lolz. nt funny. zzzzz... ok ltr hor, walked down the stairs ler, reach the health check room outside, o really bth liao. i blacked out and fainted. IN FRONT OF WHOLE CLASS OK. zzzzzz... freaking paiseh. actually dint faint totally. i was stiu half conscious. heard alot of noise. somebody said don crowd ard her. hey wat happen to her. OMG, wat happen. this and that la. iyah. bloody. it was noisy. =X thanks guys for the concern anyway. ltr i jus lie there and started crying again did i? i was afraid.. haii. then joanna keep rubbing oil on me. zzz.. ltr mrs boh come liao. firdauz y u go call her come. make the matter till like its so big. zzzz... she asked me. are u ok? Of cos i am nt la. obviously.. zzzzz.... aft that the nurse who came to our sch to do health check on students, ask them to help me to the room inside to rest. they walk me in. WAH PIANG. it was freaking cold ok. i was shivering then.ltr heard the nurse say, u din eat breakfast. i nod my head. then she say wat low blood. yah i noe low blood. then ltr got one say wat. her blood somehow doesnt go to her brain. zzzzzzzzz.. ltr heard the nurse say wat mattress.. then scully take one straw mat put on floor ask me slp there. zzzzz.. but mrs boh say let me rest in sick bay, they help me down. for ur info, i stiu couldnt see anything lor. joanna and kailing help me down. then step into general office, they gave me those roller chair to sit on.the nurse told mrs boh, my blood nt enuff sugar? wat the.. zzzzz.. then in the office, mrs boh ask if they gt sweet, then i was wanting to eat myself, she feed me.. lol.. wat man. i nt kid. they push the chair into the sick bay, help me to lie on the mattress. then mrs lim yap cheng was toking dono wat. ;tr she gave me a cup of sugar water.. zzz.... mrs boh say but i give her sweet le. then mrs lim say but supposing the water will reach her brain faster.. then they force me drink. very sweet hor. faints. ltr get diabetes. rest there. thanks kailing and joanna and whoever help me in anyway. so paiseh to mafan u all... and thanks for the care and concern. i am alrite ler. don worry for me ok? thankiew guys. and ong thiam lye, u si kpo. PUI. go ask kailing wat shit la... zzzzzzzz....

baby, i jus miss u so much. haii.

missing him

2005-04-04T21:47:00.001+08:00

freak. OH FREAK. its only the first day, i already miss him so much. haii. wat the hell man. ytd dint slp for the whole nite. simply couldnt sleep. reach sch cried. cried so much. but aft that feel better abit... but during free period.listen to tong hua, cried again. omg. i can cry so much. zzzz.... aft that fone low battery ler.. but b4 i off the hp, i sms liyan who was sen's sister asking her to tc of him for me.:X hmm.. ltr 1210 or so i on my hp to see if my hp gt msg bo. sadly, don have... i off it again.. jus in case ltr totally no battery... ltr ard 1 i on my hp. I SAW A MSG. IT WAS FRM LIYAN DE HP NUMBER. then i open the msg, realising it was baby who sms me. ^^ so happy. but when i was about to reply, text halfway, kns, no battery.. zzzzz... ltr cannot reply him le lor. the first thing i wanna do is to CHIONG home charge hp and sms him. omg. thot i couldnt contact him for that one whole month. i am SO HAPPY. hehe... even that 1 simple sms make me really happy. i was on cloud nine. haha... ai si ni le baby!!!!=X and thanks to liyan jie. for lending ur brother ur hp so he could sms me. thanks a million!

missing him

2005-04-04T21:47:00.000+08:00

omgomg

2005-04-03T20:32:00.000+08:00

omg omg .. time is running out. shit.
7 hours left. oh freak. i miss u.
yes i do.
i believe our love is strong.
no matter how far are we apart, i'll stiu be near u. my heart is with u.

2005-04-03T09:09:00.000+08:00

ytd went town with sharlene and liyan. liyan is sen's sister. yah. went to watch spongebob squarepants. though its a very short movie. but its damn it funny. its like onli a hour and twenty minutes. oh gosh we miss the first part lor. freak. but nvm. its nt impt to me anymore. there's something more impt for me to do. find that nth is more impt then that. tears fill to the brim of my eye. fall off frm my eye. there i am, crying. haii... totally in no mood to blog u noe. hope tmr can escape english. then i can go temple.
hmmm, liyan, sorry ah. chua tio u. =X

blog abit more la. arboh complain nth to see.. zzz... wah piang. less then a day. my dear classmates and frens who happen to see this. pls don provoke me for the next few days. well. i wont turn violent like i use to do. i'll only go hard on myself. i'll be in a foul mood. better don trigger me. haii. gastric pain again. >.<~ but i'm fine. so donch worry.

if tmr i give any of u attitude. pls forgive. not in a good mood. don provoke me.

i dono wat is it that i love u so much.
all i know is that i need u.
cant believe how much i love u.=D
i'll listen to that song everyday.

i will wait for ur return.

i will miss u like mad everyday and nite.=(

*prays very hard* hoping a month will pass real fast.
[[missing euu so much]]
baby, wo ai ni! xP

omg.sadden

2005-04-02T09:10:00.000+08:00

omg. the day is coming so fast... T.T

hmm. ytd nvr blog cos reach home abit late. then was chatting with lene and my baby. xP then no time blog..

ytd aft sch went down to compass point there meet up weisen and JS jamie lene and jace jies. LOL. so many sis ard. faints. meet meiying at woodlands interchange to take 965 lorr. went there reach ler. went to popular first. to buy my PENS. DONO WHICH MORON. TAKE MY PENS AND PENCIL YEAH? fark u. =X better return it on monday. or i'll start cursing. bah. nvm. monday... no mood to scold pple lar. hai. 4 get it. don so gian can? steal pple things very fun huh. chou ji dan. =XX hehe. hmm.. then i told meiying that i gotta foot the phone bill. she say she also. she gt 6 bills to foot. LOL. i gt 1 onli la. daddy lor. ma fan. ask me go pay for him.zzz.. walking down the escalator i asked meiying if she wans to foot the bill nw or meet they all first. she say anything lor. so we plan to go find em first. but as we walk to mos burger there. saw the AXN machine. then might as well pay lor. then as i was doing the paying. suddenly got pple stand behind me. LOL. it was. u noe la.. weisen lor. LOL. but when i was doing the process of paying the bill. my gastric suddenly attack me. ahhhhh. PAIN. zzz. weisen and JS went to buy cards. aft they left. i told meiying to pay first. i squat on the floor. too pain ler... omg. wth siah. like eating drug one day nvr eat then will die lidat. zzzzzz.... but aft that ok abit. buy panadol eat lor. wat to do. zzzzz.... ah ya. ltr jace also come ler. JACE JIE JIE. MISS U LEH. =X lolllllll.... ltr went out to the mos burger side lor. then saw one more person i din expect. at first dono who is she. then ltr me js and lene study on another tabel she join in then kinda chit chat with us. then i thot to myself. who is she huh? then the way she toks show that weisen was her brother. LOL. funny. very nice person.yeah. AH yah. DEKI WAS THERE TOO. lol. forget to say ur name.=X aft that. dint really study anything. call mummy couldnt reach her. ask daddy where she go daddy also dono. worry like hell. aft that found her. heng. mummy i'm sorry.heng physics on monday. ^^

aft that went to skcc to see js and weisen play bball. hmm. but aft that lene say she wan go popular buy things for her notes. then ok lor. we went together with weisen's sis and jace plus of cos deki lar. hahahah. lovebirds. tmm. LOL. faints. aft the bball session. was kinda disappointed. U DUMB GIRL WHY DINT U SAY OUT THE THINGS U WANNA SAY. omg. u sucks totally la. STUPID GIRL. zzzzzzz... went down to jln kayu eeat prata. accidentally order teh tarik. in e end guess u all know wat happen le lar hor? AHHHHHHH phone no batt. sian... sitted there for ard a hour or so. then all of us took bus back to CP there to take bus go home. then was kinda late. nt so late also la actually. zzzz. i am contradicting my own words. zzz...

reach home then chat all these lor. chat with hendra. wat happen ah? nt in gd mood? i tio chua when u say u fucked up. cos u nvr lidat b4. my bro. relax man.

ahhhhhhhhh. [[miss my baby.]]

wrong timing

2005-03-31T21:38:00.000+08:00

alot of things came at the wrong timing todae.
zzz
mummy. i scream at mummy at the time when she's damn upset.oh shit.
it wasnt a good day todae. argh. everything seems to go wrong.
woke up late. went to sch late. dint take cab. realise that i bring 2 BUCKS only. zzzz..
i mean i nvr bring. it was in my pocket liao.zzzzzzz.
in class slack quite abit todae. i onli last thursday nvr come leh. wah piang. why i cannot catch up in maths liao. teacher cannot wait one lor. argh.
si mdm koh. damn it. wan me go ur remedial is it? wan use force huh. i rather go detention. don try and challenge my patience u teachers. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz... nt in a good mood. don trigger me. if u nvr force me i stiu will wanna go to ur remedial. use force? nono. don do that. onli 2 good thing happen todae. Mr De Roza Wayne Gerard i guess thats his full name. he was chanting out the names for those who tio remedial.i was all prepared for my name to be called. but scully he nvr say my name. then i interrupt him. AY TEACHER. I DON HAVE HUH. then he say. u wan is it. ok.. then he walk to the paper on the notice board wanting to write my name. then i say okok don have. i dowan hor. thankiew/ ^^ another good thing was. this morning. DNT. ong thiam lye bring us go "excursion" LOL.. no la. jus went chong pang walk walk. search for ideas. but i jus went there to drink dao huay zui. soya bean. =X we went there by mr fong's car. kns. ong thiam lye they all took the principal's car. zzz. but nvm. well well. its over... oh ya. todae the F&N students finally have one pathetic practical session. lol.. aft english period. went to the kitchen with yam. their steam dory fish egg stiu in the steamer. then wait for shara to come open door. when i go in. jus sit and slack ard. saw angeline's rice. seems to be so nice. she ask me to eat. then i eat. at first. i thot. y the rice so hard huh? but it was stiu nice leh. mayb i don like soft and sticky rice bah. haha. i thot it was nasi briyani. or wadeva the spellin is. then they say tomato rice? o.o!! haha. wadeva. angeline and huilin de rice and egg all these. is the best. when i eat the rice frm yiwen's plasticbox. i jus eat. then i dint have any expression. si jason say. hey. nice then say la.don have to be shy one. then i jus say. u don cock la.u call this nice? LOLLLLLL. taste weird siah. ltr i stomach ache u all tmr all die. =X
went home aft detention end. mummy triggered me. ask me y so late came bk. i said i tio detention. PLS BELIEVE ME CAN? BLUFF U FOR WAT.zzzzzzzzzz.. i was resting then keep buzzing ard my ear. pls study pls study.. can don slp. u wan slp till u die is it. i'm stiu ok leh. i went to use the comp. then say wat. TOKING COCK AGAIN HUH. wa lan ay. i damn dulan liao. i screamed. at her. diam la. and the f word jus came out frm nowhere. argh. i already said. i nt in good mood. don trigger Me. don blame me if i flared at u. daddy also. kns. kor use com u din kp. yes yes. i know i am taking o level this yr, but does that mean that i must receive SPECIAL TREATMENT FRM U ALL? wah piang wat the heck. everything jus came at the wrong timing todae. one word to describe all. SUCKS.
zzzzzzz.say somemore. nw i even scream at dad. i say i will off means i'll off stop nagging can boh. arhhhhhhhhh.. gg mad.

haiiiii

2005-03-30T14:36:00.000+08:00

Don't Get Mad, Get Sam.

hahah. got the webbie frm hendra de blog. funny slogan.
http:///thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi

I Like the Fuck in You.
Unzip a Leishi.(wat the)

another funny one.

It Needn't Be Hell With Leishi
this is a ncie one frm chinese name. LOL...
yundao... is it really hell? loll.

Snap Into A Slim Leishi

this one kinda insult me yeah? LOl. nvm.

moody todae.

...

2005-03-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

zzzzzzz. my pic is all over kailing de blog HOR.
HOR KAILING. =X
lol.. todae quite a few pics. but so sad. hendra's digi cam left at ong thiam lye's van. cannot send me. LOL
tmr then update. ^^

zzzzzzzz

2005-03-29T16:26:00.000+08:00

erps. something is really wrong with me.
went to sch as usual. zzzzz. mummy gt me a new hp. its kinda lady like. but nvm i stiu love it.hehehe. hmm. went to sch in a slpy mood. was abit pekchek with the pple ard in sch. U NOE WHO U R. =D don make me say ur name erh? anyway. ytd did i mention i did a very embarrassed thing? i scream. IN THE PUBLIC. zzzzzzz. was on the 969 bus for like ard 40 mins, reach the interchange then oppss. my leg having cramp. zzz.. manage to get off the bus. then i was standing there. don dare to move. kns. then yam know i kena cramp. DI SIAO ME. i asked her nt to touch my leg. stiu purposely HIT it. then there i go . screaming. everyone was looking. omggggg... paiseh siah. nvm... i shall revenge the nxt time u kena cramp. *evil smiles*

ok back to todae's happening in sch. it was like like chinese period. then mdm ng came in. i was stiu pestering kailing which pic she put in her blog. cos ytd nvr go to her blog mah. then i dono which one she put. o.o then she describe wat her hair pattern was like and was it a new shot or old shot.. then she say wear eBase de blouse then blah blah blah. then i go "OMG i NOE WHICH ONE LIAO." omg omg omg. i kinda scream did i? LOL. mdm ng was asking me u omg wat?? then i say nth. but i keep on omgIng.. that pic. was the TOOTEST pic ever. with my swollen up eyes. lol. nvm. nobody is gonna look at it anyway. ^^ haha.. english period came i dint do the compre. duh! when mr row abt to come into class. i went out and told him i need one more day to complete my work. i was pointing my index finger to indicate one day. then he nvr say anything abt the late handing up of work. he say" pls cut ur nail" i was like. LOL. ok. but i am nt gonna cut it. hahahah. as we walked into the class...... duh. he was saying actually girls having long nails nvm la.. he say if got "se lang" wan to attack u... POKE THE NAIL INTO HIS EYES> i was like. goodness sake. then u wan me to cut it??? zzzz........ hahah.. but i am nt harm bah. the molester who is stiu in the big is located at clementi. lucky i sty woodlands. LOl. anyway girls becareful hor...

it was pe time.. got change then was kinda tidying up my hair. but blah la. teacher was scolding. hahaha. then i was full of hope of playing handball. of becos of firdauz THE GUYS SNATCH OUR LOBANg. shit u la. u ass... then played floorball which was something like hockey... hmmm,.. kns. i rather be goalkeeper. initially dowan to play one. told teacher we wan handball. then some GIRLS. in our class dowan to play. nt enuff pple cannot play. then teacher say nxt wk lor. k lor. i be the goalkeeper. was lying on the bball de that wat do u call that? the post ah. the ball dint came my way. then it came. i dint use the hockey stick to hit. i use leg to kick. =XX lol. sorry la... yellow and red team we have. i was in th yellow team. =DDDD woho. guess who won? of cos *ahem* yellow team. i was a good goal keeper? or rather u guys lousy. =XX jk niah. lOL. bell rang and ok we went to canteen, as i was leaving the post. suddenly very giddy. and i mean VERY. i fell onto the ground. KNS YAM AND KAILING. guess they dint saw me. gayathri help me up instead. thanks girl. when we reach the podium. GOSH. i BLACK OUT.zzzzzzzzzzzzz... i screamed for YAM.. i couldnt see anything.. everything was black. i tried standing up but fell again. aft awhile sat on the bench in the canteen. rest awhile ok lerr.. then went to buy drinks and sandwich. but aft that feeling damn nauseous. feel like puking. quickly went to the toilet. there i was vomitting the hell out. zzzzzzz... i come out my face was TOTALLY red. lol. argh. nvm. was feeling better. they say i was too hungry thats y i blacked out. but it wasnt lor. i ate but i puke. wats the diff man.. ah duhs... i can faint anytime...

DNT period we were chit chatting frm 115 pm to 130 pm. went to eat. then set off for woodgrove. whoa. we were taking pics down there. LOL. act cute. act monster. all sorts of it. hahaha. then came home. hmm. thats abt all for todae. take care peeps... ^^

zzzzz

2005-03-28T20:00:00.000+08:00

jus some backaches.
jus feeling nauseous.
but i can eat.
big bruise on my right arm. hw did i get that?
kor punch me de huh?
wah my thumb super POISONED.
it turn BROWN. can u believe it? even the nail turn brown.
hurhur. teacher say all those acid gt no poison unless u drink it.
i nvr drink leh. y i stiu tio poison. nt pain stiu ok. pain?!
but stiu can tahan the pain. like skin peeling.
overall stiu good todae.
feeling better le bahh.
guys exams are approaching again.
lets work hard together. =D we must beat 5N2 ok.=X
blah blah blah. blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

zzzzzzzz

2005-03-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

i cant believe i did that.
LOLLLLLLLLLLL........
go sch ask me wat is it abt bah.
I WONT SAY ONE. LOLLLLL.
i stiu cant believe i said it.
jus like a dream. LOL.
iyah. i am happy today. =D
i can eat. AGAIN. LOL.
nth special happen todae.
but something special happen ytd. LOL
i have been LOL-ing all the way.
oh ya. s0mething special happen la..
daddy strike 4D. 6137. 3rd prize i think.
that hp number last time i use de leh. kns.
if i stiu using nw i strike liao lor. lol..
haha. i say till like i gt buy lidat. siao. hmm. daddy say he'll give me money for my new specs. and kor is getting a new HP. cos he got his bursary mahh. congrats my dear KOR. happy for u also.. wonder if we can go poly together. then no pple will bully me. =X omg. i crapping again. say till like gt pple dare bully me.. haha... i go there bully pple onli lar. =XXX heeeee... in a damn it special mood todae. i am dumb i am silly man. mummy say i am cum gong kia. LOL.. cos i say why i cannot grow tall liao. ah duhs. mummy todae abuse me............. yun dao. lucky i in good mood. arboh i sure flare up one. kor aim nw is to get his bike license and go poly bahh. yah. hope his dreams come true soon.

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2005-03-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

nth to blog.
bye.

blah

2005-03-26T12:52:00.000+08:00

dono wat to say la. jus sense a big catastrophe coming my way? duh.lol...
keep repeating this techno. listen till wan cry. =S lol. mus be thinking techno? cry? lol dumb.
but part of it is touching i think. =DDDDDDD
wats that shadow and sound for man? =OOOOOOOOOOOOOO

aww man. shit it. SHIT IT. hw long nvr go cycling. haiii
wait till i recover lerr... i will go one. hahaha, christine on boh?
whoa. i miss the speed down the slope at chris carpark there..
fark shit. hate it when U kp. u noe the U is who.

fark shit

2005-03-25T20:29:00.000+08:00

fark shit.
same old pattern. vomit vomit vomit.
piss off by so many thing todae.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. nvm
feeling better. =DDDDDD no worries guys.
cheers ^^v

poisoned

2005-03-25T14:45:00.000+08:00

POISONED. lols... nt the song poison by groove coverage hor.. that wednesday went to chem lab did alot of experiment by myself. hahah. i am nt scared of the bunsen burner anymroe. no deal down there. at most BOMB. exploode lor. hahahah... MRS LEONG is a good teacher. though she's abit weird lar.. lol.. she'll save me if the bunsen burner explode. hahahaha. wa lau. the news of my table get onto fire kinda spread ard the whole school. EVEN MRS LEONG NOE it. *yun dao* when she mention it. i pretend nt to hear anything. then tmd firdauz scream muah name. =SSSSSSSSS y nvr say angela siah. yam also same table with me mah. kns.. oh ya. mentioning bt poison. my thumb index and middle finger. tio poison. pain.. then the brown brown stain. don go off lor. i cut i mean i peel the skin. ltr at nite turn brown again?! siao ah. will i die? LOLLL. yam also tio poison. but hers was at the palm la. my at fingers..

haii. todae holiday. nowhere to go. sorry yam. nvr go cyclin with u guys. damn it sorry.. was suppose to cycle to jln kayu lar. iyah even i go i cycle expressway. =XX LOL... k la i am full of nonsense. tio caught b4. ahhahaha.haii. total sadness. sick sick sick. *prays hard don nid go that bloody place* hope my gastric be more ting hua. eat more. =X nw headache. should say since ytd. right side of my head. keep pulling my vein. pain. nw whole head pain, ARGH. phuck-up. don mess with me todae. may flare anytime. =D long time nvr flare up liao. ahahahhaha, how long was it? hurhur. nt going anywhere todae. but i want go sembawang park. there gt beach.. haiiii. i wan go to a beach somewhere la.. can someone bring me go? omfg. i really need to relax out there. arghhhhhhhhhhhh... i dowan to flare up man. i really dowan to.

dion and pierre came my house. pierre slping. dion come here ask my mummy teach him drawing. iyoh. sometimes they very fan one. bth. but see they smile and luff i also happy lar.total sadnessssssssssssssss................... stay at home nuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...................AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. if anyone could bring me out. haiiiiiiiii.

and kns. the eye 10. seems to be a lousy movie hor JIE. HORRR. si spoiler. haven watch u tell me everything. sorry that i cup ur fone. cos i intended to watch that movie. but u spoil my mood. i admit that i was dulan ok. who ask u. call so many time. ahhhhh. nw u tell me also good. i can go watch other movie or go escape. =DDDD

haiiiii

2005-03-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

wat the hell is wrong with me man. nth seems to be correct todae. kept saying the wrong things. omg. made him upset again. becos of my stupidity. haii. i am sry baby. really sorry..
wadeva i eat. came out frm my mouth. faint. get wat i mean? dono ask me.
drank milk puke milk. hurhur.
can someone hug me pls? haii
tmr cant go cycle with u guys ler. sorry.
first reason is erm.. meeting sensen. secondly is becos my dad. he sure kp me if i go. lol
nvm... and. todae sen told me i am the HRO of #12am. thot i was only a member. haha..
and congrats to my kor.all his hardwork has been notice. he got his ITE EDUSAVE MERIT BURSARY.2004.
kor, i am proud of u. nw u can finally go take up ur motor lessons. i mean register la.
nxt tim earn ur license liao. if i ever go tamasek poly. which is near ur ite. must long bang me to sch. LOL. jk la... think by the time u grad frm ite le bahh. hope u can get into a poly. ^^ i noe u can do it. =P
i write until lidat. as if he gg to see it. i mean read my blog. faint.
haiya.very sick. was ok. but nw unwell again. argh.

k la. i shall stop my chatings. headache.

wonder wat is he doing nw.

haiii. sorry baby.

suddenly headache. left side of muah head hurts so much. omg. wats wrong with me.

i feel so empty without you,
although i bearly knew you.
why do i keep thinking abt u.
[[extracted frm wendy's blog.]] nice siahh. this is jus part of it. nt complete de. but i found this part the most meaningful part. =D nice one wendy. cya ard soon leh. lols

u stand a place in muah heart.
u're impt to me.
hope u noe that.
missing u...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

2005-03-24T12:45:00.000+08:00

omfg omfg omfg. kpl kpl kpl. wthf wthf wthf. OMG OMG OMG. faint faint faint

y is it that we alwaes have to argue abt me? huh? someone tell me puh-leaseeeee

i pass u the tape. u accidentally touch my hand.

u say "why is ur hand so icy cold?"

i was like. nvm lar. everynite also lidat one. same goes for my feet. so wats the deal down here.

u say i used the com too much. wat has it gotta do with com. the com is nt cold.. faint.

ok i went to sleep. stop ur kps.

u came into my room. asking if i wan tonics. i say don nid la.

he say. u are so weak. but u don even wanna tc of urself. wat don nid. i'll ask mummy to boil for u.

wat the. faint... wadeva la. u don even wanna take care of urself. how am i suppose to tc of myself. pui.

wadeva shit is that la. morning wake up stiu gastric. but don dare tell daddy.
try to go sch. but i couldnt lor. u noe how pain it was. i keep breaking cold sweat. shivering like nvr b4. LOL. normal.i tel dad that i diarrhoea. =X lied again,. but wat to do. if say gastric he sure to kick a big fuss over it. haha.

hmm. mummy another very noisy de.faint. but nvm she worry for me mahh. keep asking me to wake up and eat her porridge. say wat ltr cold liao nt nice. pls lor. i awke up and touch the bowl.it was stiu HOT lor. and i mean it. HOTTTTTT.. iyah jus add soya sauce lor. kns. add too much. kan salty. faint. but wow... so touched u noe. to see that bowl of porridge. inside got so many ingredients. =DDDDDDD ai ni orh mummy!. insidegot. eh. potato, celery, lean meat, cereals, and the barley,AND GINGER. YUCKS. =X no la. take out nvr eat. lolsssss.

ytd was damn it tmd. kns de. heart broken de sad. but ok ler.. OK LER,.........................

LOLSSSSSSSSSS.

my baby. [[missing euuu]]

faint

2005-03-23T22:00:00.000+08:00

ANDY LAU CHENG WEI. U SUCK BIG TIME. TMR GO SCH BE PREPARE FOR MY MOCKINGS TO U. TO THK U PLAY BBALL SO WELLLLLLLLLLLLL. AND THAT SIMI NAME OF THAT GUY. U SUCK TOO. SEE U GUYS ARE SO PROUD. DON BE PROUD. U GUYS WONT MAKE IT ANYWHERE. =)
hey guys. sorry ah. if i nonsense too much again. hmm. gg to make new specs with kai bahh. ^^
plastic frame. o.O suit me? iya heck lar. nobody is gonna look at me also.its for me to studyyyyy. if i don have specs i cant study.

wah i haven been saying wat my heart wanna say. i am controlled by my mouth. i may say things u guys don like. but it wasnt on purpose. sorry all.

and that XY. pls hor. onli u are the one who wanna change place. u don kpkb to teacher i tell u. and to whom it may concern. I WILL STICK TO MY CURRENT PLACE TILL I LEAVE THAT SCHOOL.i am nt gonna change. if sit in 3 pple. i am gonna tok more instead of studying. and don . DOn ever shift my seating place to the back. u will get it frm me. u noe wat i am CAPABLE OF OK. don make me reapeat. onli there. i can study. thankliews for the cooperations

si kailing. post all the pic. faint. my dad kp me bt nt being healthy again. bye all

sadden

2005-03-23T20:51:00.000+08:00

grey? hur. as usual went to school todae. realise that double period of science can be quite fun too. chem was great todae. the ammonia gas. >.<>

todae english lesson. it was aft maths. maths did alot of constructing.faint. i was damn it tired. faster do finish then i was lying on the table sleeping. =X lol. ok. mr row came in. siao lang. =X i was slping. he come in start crapping liao. LOL. when i woke up. he say. excuse me miss. why is the edge of ur hair BROWN. lolssss. he say. did u highlight it 4 months ago. i was like. huh? wadeva la. ltr gina, ya hui, catherine came in. ya hui was sitting beside me. started crapping. faint. then dono why. it was group work time. i dint participate. i participate in crapping onli. dono why. suddenly mr row tok to us. OUH YA. i remember they forget bring textbk B. but i rem. ^^ ya. ya hui say. i jus came back nia. then row was saying huh? then i say she last yr 5N. came bk this yr and work hard with us again then he gt it. he asked. "so how much u gt for ur english, ur o lvl." ya hui said" huh, eh.D7". i was kinda stun. =X row then ask her prelim. she say b4 lor. row suddenly asked me. "then u? how much u gt?" i was like huhhhhh. i say 3 for n lvl. " then he say and then?? my reaction is. i taking o lvl this yr niah leh 'cher. FAINTTTTT. catherine then say. cher she nt repeat student. ya hui is.faintttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt. almost puke blood and die. T.T almost cursed him. he tot i was 19?! am i that chao lao. and i will rem 2 teacher for mylife. one is mdm chitra. she say. OH. u have a rosebud lip. was that meant to be sarcastic. it was years but i stiu rem. faint. the other one is mr row liao. knssss larrrrrrr.

and he was toking bt types of compo. and explaning wats the meaning of expository.pls la. u thk we so dumb u have to explain wats expository? LOL. then he say. "for example. i ask u all to write abt HER.(pointing to me)." i was like. u wan write hor. ur book wont sell. LOLLLLL. then he say ok "u all cannot say she's a guy when she's a girl rite." why did he say that.? wat has it gotta do with the expository? siao. then i say wait wait wait. i have doubts on my own gender. firdauz then scream. SHE's A SHEMALE. faint. must u scream. or be so xcited abt it. siao langg. then AMY or AMI go. HAHAHAHA. aw forget it. i was crapping. i have a heart of a girl at least. LOl

iyah went to develope photo aft sch. it wasnt clear though. faint. waste money. nxt time then post friendster. sibei funny one. faint.
nth to blog ler la.

my heart stop beating when u told me that.

fug it

2005-03-22T18:06:00.000+08:00

nth special happen todae. hahaha. nt late todae siah. surprised. i buy breaky and eat in sch. i vomit out. >.<>

pe was fun todae. i can run as i sms. realise that i am such a genius. =X lol..... but run short dist lar. almost fell but dint fell.. luck was with me todae i suppose. lols.. went back to the courtyard to play "handball" wats that. nvr play b4. rauff then teach us. but he finish saying the rules in 1 minute. tmd. i dint get everything but ok jus play. perspire so much todae. had the sense of man zu gan. ^^ erps. i forgot was playing with mah bunch of girls classmate. too rough liao.=X. bang into yiwen 3 times todae. LOL.... faint. abit guilty she got bruise on her leg and hand. FAINTTTT. sorrie peeps. i am rough u should noe. =X fark it. a manage to score 3times nia. the game is kinda girly? no la. boyish too. lol.. the game was kinda fun. kept screaming. =X lol... aft that. recess liao. went to drinki 2cans of 100plus nia. if i eat. i vomit everything again.hahah.. was abit sian that physics was double period. but it wasnt that sian aft all. LOL. wat the fuck am i toking........

nw. u girls should have seen my back peeling like siao. fyrouz. u mai pervert ok. i am nt touching myself but peeling my skin off. duhz. as usual bullied ong thiam lye in dnt lesson again. hahaha. wonder why he is the discipline master for sec4/5. kns. u onli die in my hand HAHAHAH. noe my power. i am honest ok. i say i anti poa because gt vale. u can go tell him all u like. i don give a damn abt it. ^^ AND U CHOOSE. JUNE HOLIDAYS DON GIVE ME SO MANY EXCUSES U NT FREE TO HELP US WITH O LVL PROJECT. U CHOOSE. 5N1 OR NCC MORE IMPT. i told him these todae. make a choice. thankiew hor. AND HAHA. he knew i was smsing. he said. "why nt do it in a guang ming zhen da way" well. u thk i don dare, ok lor. LOL. i stiu show him i was smsing. but u nvr confiscate my fone. u chose nt to confiscate. don say i bully u horrrr..hahahaha.

last period finally finished. went to canteen to eat with hendra, fyrouz, nabil.. all guys and me onli ger? LOL. we are classmate lar. ate chicken rice. WAH IT SUCKS. chili nt spicy one. hahaha,. went back to class with hendra they all. was cocking ard in class. well. feel close with u guys again. i finally feel that i belong to the class again. ahhaha. well. we tok openly one. we are nt paiseh bt seeing the GUYS BOXERS. OR GIRLS Pulling their. *Ahem* bra strap? LOLLLLLLL. faint,. firdauz. so wot i see ur checkered boxers. well u lie on the table,. and its obvious. don say i use my eyes molest u k. faint! hahah. aw man. even during physics lesson. we tok openly to. LOL. we don give a fuck la. as long as we are nt perv will do. rite fir? LOL. fooled ard so much todae. oh ya. a moth fly to our class todae. i was saying lucky huilin nvr see. arboh she scream like mad. scully, she saw it. as usual. she ran to the other side of the classroom. lol. the moth stopped at my leg. i was "screaming" lol. faking it. and shake it off .

yaya. stop pulling my tee shirt and look into it. my skin peel and i noe disgusting don have to go eeeeeeeeee. ok. =P..hahah. todae in class keep toking openly. i am the onli girl in class siah. sot one, 5N1 is lidat. we tok with no worries.

HENDRA remember BRATHER? LOL. nt BROTHER. =X pervert us.

during recess. yam ask me this damn it questin.why did u ask me such stupid question? "why u play until so ping ming" faints. if i play a game. i am committed. play well. be serious with the game. if wan do ur best, dowan. don play it. ^^ thats the sportmanship.

AND FIRDAUZ. STOP SAYING I AM CUTE ALRITE. FAINT.

2005-03-21T20:21:00.013+08:00

daddy jus call gugu. his younger sister. then she say 3rd april they going to pray to ah ma.. thk her death anni. haii. have been missing my dear grandmother since she passed away. hope u're alrite at the nether world with qi gugu. hmmmz. kinda sad when i heard that i cant go back to offer respects. =S i missed her. dad also cant go back. he couldnt obtain any leave. and his passport expire liao. for u guys de info.

i am a singaporean filled with malaysia blood.
mummy is a sg. daddy is a malaysian.
so i am mixed blooded.
haii. sadden that i cant go back.
prays hard that ah ma is doing well.
i love euu alwaes. [[ char bor sun]]

whoa. and i miss putting fireworks in m'sia. that time cny went back for nearly a wk. at nite. omgggg.. totally beautiful. the dark sky was light up by the fireworks... the sounds. omgg.. super duper nice nice nice. AHHHHHHH.. i wanna go back and play. ai seh those very beautiful de cost ard 700+ringgits. which mean 300+sg dollars. gotta save up

AHHHHHH. my daddy kp-ing abt kor's prob again. iyah i dowan to chup lar. kns. very fan ahhhhhhhh

zzzzzz

2005-03-21T19:43:00.000+08:00

wat fuck is this. i actually woke up late. but i have the urge to go sch. so i went. woke up 630? left hse ard 645. and fuck. i couldnt hail a cab. sms asraf ask him where. told him i was late. he say he late also. U BIG FAT LIAR!!!!!!! u manage to got on the last bus which can reach sch on time. and i wasted my precious seconds to sms u. so i miss the bus. knssss...i hail a cab lor. fugggg.. dint bring much money todae. gt like 8 bucks nia? am i down with luck or wat. tmd. keep stuck at the traffic there, alwaes red light, fugg... the fare meter jump so fast. that taxi driver stiu say. "lucky gt u these students late take cab. arboh we all no money earn" kns. tok so much. actually can stop at overhead bridge there. but leg pain. no choice. he make u turn to our sch. 5.80?! tmd. woodlands to yishun leh. wat fuck is this. the uncle stiu say nt enuff money nvm. of cos have la. don have i hop off half way liao. curse the 965 bus. 969 is faster. pui.

reach sch ler. SAW THE MOST SCARIEST THING EVER, KNN. JO MARIE BACK. i have to siam her here and there. pui pui pui. aft assembly. she like purposely park there. in frnt of the 5N class there. 5N2 walk liao i purposely pretend to be 5N2 student also. keep siaming and hiding. cos i dowan go home to dye back hair when i spend 6 bucks of the cab. lucky she nvr see me. i too clever liao. =X hahahahah.

ytd nite was a very scary one. daddy flared up. bro kp. todae also. &*#^*^#*(@4/ can all of u STFU and give me a break pls. i am stiu a girl ok. U THK PUSHING EVERYTHING TO ME WORKS. IT DOESNT OK. i will still break down ok. argh. let me have some peace. puh-lease.....

hahahahah... fall down in the toilet. =X y am i so clumsy. haha. lucky the floor nvr crack. heeeeeeeee......haaaaaaa..... i started peeling ytd on the face. todae on the back. and its..... UGLYYYYYYY................. my back. one patch one patch.

siansssssss

2005-03-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

i have got nothing to blog todae ok.

2005-03-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

a heart breaking story lies within.
blood is flowing out frm my heart
i couldnt control my feelings.
i started crying
seeing ur departure.
never been that sadden.
i cried.

nvr eat dinner. mmummy dint cook enuf for me and dad. so i told dad to eat first. i wait for mummy to come home. in e end drink green bean soup? lols. it was nice. and wat was that kuey huh? i am losing my appetite. seriously. use to eat so much. 5meals a day was the most. but nw.. 1 meal a day is good to keep me full. but i'll stiu eat abit. for the sake of him. =D i am having headache. but i cant slp. hai. dad keep asking me hungry nt. i noe he concern but very fan. i told him if i hungry i will find things to eat.

missing euuuu

argggggggggggggg

2005-03-19T17:30:00.000+08:00

Y IS IT THAT MY HOLIDAYS END SO SOON.I WAS PLAYING THAT I DINT REST. FUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG........... I NEEDA REST.

I MISS MUAH BABY...

sians

2005-03-19T15:46:00.000+08:00

PLS LET ME GRW UNTIL 1.7M THEN I AM HAPPY. =X
LOL
AND LET ME HIT 18 SOON. SO I CAN FULFILL MY WISHES.

faint

2005-03-19T13:31:00.000+08:00

i am kan tired. but cant slp. someone tell me why. =S

eat liao also pain. nvr eat also pain. =S simi lai de. kns

wahahahah. AND I REALISE SOMETHING. YTD DE OUTING,

I AM THE ONLY CHAR BOR WITH SHORT HAIR, PUNKY HAIR ALSo. i guess

kns. sibei xtra. loner.

[[missing euuuuu]]

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2005-03-19T08:12:00.000+08:00

blardy hell. i am suffering frm heavy headache nw. tmd.. sorrie hor. ytd went out whole day. reach home 10+ was like chatting away.. then forget to blog. when i was abt to blog. bro came bk. iyah. u guys must noe that he got the rights over the com so cannot blame arh. =D ytd went to the simi #12am outing. haii. total disappointment? i dint even noe who was who. i mean there are simply too many pple liao. and wat worst was. KAI PS ME. nvm. that damn beckson. i have yet to warn u. kns. don give me ur attitude hor. u're a guy y u make my dotter's life so wei nan. so sandwiched between us. for the sake of easing UR EMBARRASSMENT. i have to let both of u go. phuck. u thk u big si bo. tmd. guy act like a guy lar. give me such a bad impression the first time i see u. i don thk i wanna see u again. pui! kai. don blame me for writing this.

aft kai left. i was left out all alone. but heng gt sheri and xz pei me. aft that xz nvr pei me liao. left with sheri lorr. then some left for the movies. a number of us were left at the cuppage plaza there playing pool. =S it was total boringness. i have been reading newspaper. ABT SOCCER HIGHLIGHTS. LOL. as usual. ^^ really total boringness. and perhaps sadness. nobody tok to me. i mean whether i am there like doesnt make a difference. and mayb i was too dao that no one dare to tok to me? or my face to black in a sense that i abit buay song.. LOL.. iya i fark care abt hw u guys look at me. i noe i am nt dao can liao. hahah... hmmm. talk to kaka and meiying lor. ended up with them. and the ah keith also. kns. we were sitting outside starbucks slacking wasting youth and time.then suddenly gt one guy wearing black. his irc nick was f-secure i thk. he asked hw old is keith and meiying they say 19 i thk. then he say "wah then i youngest down here" he say he 17 nia. i was like. DUHZ. i told him. i am 16 gg 17 lor. and the tmd. chou ah keith.say wat. hUH.16 gg 17. u don bluff la. then i was like. erps. sheri was saying i have the baby face.then nw gt pple think i so old. chao lao. LOL.. then i told him really lor. then u thk i hw old. he say he thot i was 18, 19. LOL. isnt that wat i want? to be 18 fast. so i can do the things i wanna do nt restricted by dumb laws? haha. i dint watch movie with them though. i thot. i really thot. i sibei extra ytd. total sadness. and to sensen. really sorrie bt nt toking to u. u come my school find me i sure tok to u until u scare of me. i didnt know ur intentions. haii. sorry to disappoint u...

this blog is done by sen. i did nth except the postings. =S lol.... sian... thanks kaka and ah keith and meiying for the companion. if it havent been u guys. i'll feel damn extra and inferior. ps. i really wanted to go home. rite aft sheri left. and till the last minute i was still deciding whether to come or nt. but i already promised sen i'll be there. at least i dint run off half way. which i planned to. then went to bugis ler. me, ah keith, meiying and kaka walked ard bugis s.c. cos they wanted to eat but we donch wan to. somemore they actually suggested swensen?? LOL. i have to save money de ok. food onli. eat inside stiu the same. aft walking. we went to the food court. me and ah keith get ourselves a drink. then sat down chit chat. ah keith left at 9 i think. cos probations lorr. siansations.. then ltr i plan to leave at 930 without gg back to say gdbye to them. who was actually bud, sino, simon, sensen, who else huh. lol. some i dono. but stiu went there and make a fool outta myself. calling myself technogas. hurhur. wat nonsense is that. and while walking away stiu scream at Qooo. tmd its technogas nt technogal. LOL... faints. i was full of nonsense. i onli slept for 2 hours anyway. and thats y i am suffering frm a bad headache. sians.

[[missing euuu]]

omg

2005-03-18T10:14:00.000+08:00

u guys are going blind soon i guess.. lol... cos its so small. i am refering to the font... LOL.... lidat good. i write secret nobody will take notice liao. muahahhahaha,,,, oh ya. designed by weisen!!! lurb my blog tobits and bits.. ^^ and and.................... ITS SO GIRLY. lol.... kai cfm say omg. Y DID U HAVE SUCH A GIRLY BLOG?! hahaha. lets wait and see.. =D thanks anyway.

*gastric pain siahh*

#$&(%&#%&)%

2005-03-17T17:21:00.000+08:00

my blard is boiling. EVEN I BATH ALSO PAIN. SIMI NONSENSE. THE WATER ONLY SPARYED ON MY SKIN. TMD. LIDAT ALSO PAIN. =S thk nt gonna bath liao. =X lols.... its pain lor. noe why angeline scream so loud the last time when i pat her back. even a touch will be damn fugging pain. don try to even pat. or even SLAP.=S even my lips are having the ulcers. damn unwell

i miss the jln kayu de prata!!!!!

u bastard. moron. idiot. don make me scold u even more. u thk i care?
so wat if u're in ns.? u thk i care?
u send me the sms. scolding me. u thk i care?
blardy farker. i care nth abt u.
so fark off. u blardy hella noise maker.

and to the u noe who u are. i noe u are bound to read this. so wat. i am nt afraid.
so wat i am a girl with attp?
u blardy bitch. don make me scold u.
if u are better then me. u scold me perhaps. PERHAPS ONLI. i will take it.
but pls don thk that u are so great ok.
u thk i care bt wat u said?
nono. =D

and to that complain queen. pls do nt take my respect for granted.
yesh i respect the elders.
cos my mum and dad teach me to.
and i dowan to be labelled as a ill-bred child.
but u. took my respect for u for granted.
do u thk complaining is fun?
if u enjoy complaining so much. y nt go complain abt the dirty toilets?
have u gt nth better to do.
donch u dare break my mummy's heart with those words again.
my mummy trust me alot.
so don thk u can spoil our relation.=D
don make her sad again. i noe i am the caused.
but pls keep ur mouth small.
or i shall make ur life miserable.
don try me.=D
i dowan to see my mummy cry again.
u complain queen. *smirks*

wat th heck

2005-03-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

ya went sentosa todae. shall start frm i woke up till i reach home.lols

woke up at 720 i thk? lols. 4got. set the alarm clock at ard 630.. cos scare ltr wake up late. ok i woke up. feeling so happy. went to bath and it was freaking cold lorr..i was jumping ard. daddy say are u mad or wat. then he say why u bath then. lol... siao. have a habit of bathing b4 gg anywhere de lor. ya.. so came out then pack my bag.. and then 8 i was all ready to go out.then call kai. she say she jus got out. k lorr. i use the com awhile... ltr i rem the bball i promised yam that i'll bring. then i off the com ard 830 lidat. then went to search for the bball. to my shock. it was gone. dono where it go. lol.. nvm i thot of bringing the volley ball. but when i take it it was soft. no air. then nvr bring. k i went out to the 962 busstop to waot for kai call to ask me board the bus coming frm sembawang. i walked down lor. then iw as already sun tanning. lol. guess wat, the bus stop gt a few pple lorr.. then i see nobody sit down i sit lor. was tired. very tired. then the sun is so big that its shining on my body. =S lol. but i love that kinda fell. =D hmmm. was kinda dumb. the pple look at me like i am a alien. lolss.. cos it was so bright. then i use the newspaper to cover my face. kai kol board the bus. we chi chat abit lor. she told me this indian guy jus nw at the back was singing. "pple say i am crazy" blah blah blah.i was luffing. nonsense.. hmm. reach the interchange ler. saw yam relaxing down there. with her breaky. and damn. i was hungry but nvm.. went up to buy tidbits lor. then came down.. lol.. head for the 963 bus stop. we were heng. the bus came when we reach the stop. board the bus. and saw the 4 place seat. we wanted to sit down. a guy turn and sit there. tmd. he nt gentlemen. nb.. feel like scoldin him. but was in a good mood. lol

k we were on the bus shaking legs. =X then suddenly me and yam luff. cos a girl was standing rite in front of us. which we think she is so *ahem* censored hor. then we keep luffing. kai dint noe the situation. guess me and yam pervert lor. =X sian... pass by ite dover. aWWWW MAN!! it was huGE! but cannot go in there no matter wat. must go poly!!! eh aft shaking for ard 1 hour?! or more we reach. i was full of excitement! but aft seeing that the bus gg sentosa was full of pple. i go *omg y so many pple one* then i was abit angry. lol.. for them wanting to go so late... =S we hop on the bus then i was sitting like erm.. kai wat huh? iya. i was sitting till very rough la. thats it. then kai say ltr i stuck there... LOL... no i dint. but my back did hurt that bit. ok we reach sentosa aft a few minutes.... we got down the bus and GOSH so many pple.. i was planing to queue where. lol. ask yam to pass me the money..kai also. i go buy the admission ticket.. b4 that yam found $1 on the bus. lol. we did something stupid. =X cannot say! eh, she gave me that one dollar then gave me another 2 dollar. then kai gave me her money too. she left her things on the bench as it was heavy lorr. then she stood there. yam was gg to queue up. aft taking kai's money a guy suddenly approach. he was kinda beng-looking. lol. but he wasnt bahh. he said "eh.... u all buy ticket liao mah? haven rite? i here gt 1 extra ticket. then u frm the counter buy another 2 can liao." then i was like. eh.. ok lor. i thot wat happen. cos my face abit kiam pa.. thot trouble again. LOL... then went to buy another 2 ticket.i got the tickets. the guy or his frens i dono i couldnt see their faces werent wearing specs. suddenly say."hey thank u" wonder how many time they wanna say. perhaps jus nw he dint say? lol. we walk in thinking which bus to take. there were some bus there. but wasnt gg siloso beach there.... then i waslk past the second bus. suddenly someone go "ay ay.." i was like.. eh who calling siahh. then i turn to the bus. see some guys waving."hey thankiew ah" i wave back lorr.. LLOL. i actually cant see their faces. jus wave back arboh ltr they say i boh manners.=X i was telling kai how many times they wanna say siahh.. lol.. and kai say i dumb . she say y u go answer them they were ayING u leh. but nvm lar. they dono my name also. LOL...... we saw the siloso beach line bus so hop on... actually the ALOT PPLE i referring to wasnt gg the beach lorr... nonsense. =X perhaps they gg the resort? or the chalet. i dono... aft that a whole bunch of indians? or whoever la. gt down at palawan. then i was phew. lidat siloso no ppke de la.. LOL...... eh got there. THE BEACH CANNOT SEE ANYONE SIAHH. NOT CROWDED.lol....

we got a nice shade and place our things. but the shade is so short.. THAT IT ALMOST HIT MY HEAD. lol.. lucky i nt that tall. arboh very ma fan... the first thing i did was eh. TAKE A DEEP BREATH in the toilet. o.o kai wanna go toilet so pei her. cos thk she long time nvr go. lol.. then ltr return. the sun was strong. went and SUN TAN IMMD. =X u must have thk i sot one is it. no lor. yam also wanna get tanned. but the prob with me is. tan liao will become fair again VERY FAST. and i mean it. VERY FAST. yam brought her sun tan oil. i put alot. and i mean it ALOT. i was lying there liao. ha aft awhile went back to the shade. kai was the only one who didnt want to get tanned. =S those pple dowan to get tanned can get tanned so easily. nvm. mayb too long nvr play soccer, bball all these liao? lolssssss...then started taking pictures.. hahahahahhaha.. hope kai wont put in her blog. but there is one pic both of us took is particularly...*AHEM* cannot say agin. kai should noe wat i refering to... WHAHAHAHAH...guess thats the one she'll post in her blog? ok perhaps i will put in friendster? lolss... willupdate u gusy. yam went to get this beach ball... she bought it.. and gosh how did it end up in the sea?! oh ya. she accidentally throw into the sea.. lol.. dumb girl . =X then it floated further and further.. wanted to go to the sea to take but one case. promised dad and someone nt to go out into the sea.. i also bu fang bian. that WILSON AKA BECKSON. DON NONSENSE WITH ME. so wat if u understand bu fang bian to go into the sea. its normal lor. DA YI MA CAN? lOL. i am nt paiseh abt this kinda thing de puh-lease.... yam also kena. LOL.... bah 4get abt this nonsense. he wont read my blog also. hurhur.... then those pple kayaking down there. dono is dumb or wat siahh. pass by the ball also dono how to help pple. dummies! or should i say they are so ungentlmen. k lor. the ball float to the otherside of the shore... soi ask yam quickly cross the bridge to the otherside. i went along. we ran? but nt fast. at beach how to run fast. the sand were damn HOT. the bridge is damn damn.. eh.. wats the word.. slanted?lol.. ok lor the ball floated somewhere near the shore. but stiu far away frm reaching. i go down the bridge into the sea. but the water shallow... so ok lor.. got the ball. the damn yam jsu said. "leishi saved the ball" i was like. ?! k lor. pass her the ball. then she walked off happily.! without helping me up. the bridge is tall lor. tmd... then i screamed at her.then she say ouh ya, ok ok, sorry. but i already gt up... aft that. some kids. their frisbee fall into the sea. and they wanted to get it. for their height. its VERY dangerous. then tthat yam cannot help them cos she bu fang bian la.. then i went to help them. my pants were wet this time. see. MY PANTS ARE WET, if the kids ever go out and take. ? wat wwill happen siahh. i save the day? nonsense.. lol..i was smsing sen... i was lying on the beach then on the bench also. LOL.. yam and kai were playing the beachball.i din wan to play. =D for goodness sake sometimes i really wonder if i am a girl... haha. can do all those guys things outside. =X

eh.. those small things i shall nt blog elr... and some damn guys steal our ball i alo wont say ler. yups. aft sometime. our water finish and i was kidna suffering frm dehydration. they say gt 7-11 but it was at palawan. aft acc kai buying her EXPENSIVE drink. me and yam walk down to palawan... to get the damn drinks... and we took 1 hour???? lol. i cannot walk far.. thirsty like phuck.THEN REACH> FINALLY!!!!!!!!! i got myself a 1.5 litre 100-plus. no alcohol pls.. =x i was looking at the alcohol lar. but i 16+ nia. how to buy. =S hahahahah... then yam gt a coffee and aloe v drink. sot one. i was like... how to quench thirst. i finish the 100-plus ard 6? ya 6. then we proceed to the bath. i was complaning. i wan the sun stiu. its strong i dowan to miss it. but it was 6 liao lorr.then ok. i was grumbling bt nt getting tanned.. hahah. but they say very tanned liao lor. but IT WASNT TANNED. =S then blah! the bathroom queue. was phucking long. those dumb girls. DONO HW TO BATH FAST IS IT. MEI YO GONG DE XING. argh. i was smsing sen. if i count to 10 they nvr come out i scream. lucky they come out in time. so i shower a quick one. jus wanna get rid of the sand and oil. then came out.a fast one. kai was stiu inside? cant blame. pure girls are lidat. =X lols... i was out drying my hair. thenn i rub my face, OUCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... pain. it was red. finally color was added on muah face. hahah.. i purposely wanna get my hand and legs to get tanned. but my back got sun burnt niah. siannn.... the bathrooms horr.. REALLY MUST BLOG ABT THIS. building a open shower area in the girls bathroom is definitely a bad idea. SO OBSCENE, tmd. think my eye gonna sore. for goodness sake.. really lor. i mean cant u FEMALES WAIT FOR THE BATH. DO U HAVE TO DO IT THERE? nonsense........

we went bk lorr.. shaking legs on bus again. phucking cold.... i was DAMN HUNGRY BY THEN. and my gastric pain again. >.<~~~~~~~ haii.. in the bus rite. i slp... i sit until... LOL.. ask yam and kai. i was like so chor lor.(rough) and my mummy sees me like this. SHE KILL ME FOR SURE. lol. iya i cant be bothered. i was damn phucking tired. kai lean on my shoulder did she?lol.. nvm.. ltr gt one guy sit in front of us. he was beside yam. then he see me like see ghost. a grl cannot be chor lorr mehh! NONSENSE. =X sen will kill me if he sees this. hahahahah.... blardy reach the interchnage ltr. the marble seat were empty. i dint wanna queue for 962, ask kai to seat at the chair that more spacious. great. i lie down there like there.s nobody. i phcuk care la. i told u guys i am damn tired. my gastric was also damn pain. reach home ler. daddy say. siao char bor. "go sentosa pak ga ang ang." it means crazy girl. go sentosa tan till red red. nvm daddy. todae u come home guess u will say. "iyo. siao char bor. bin ani orh" which means. iyo ur face so black. tanned. =S lol. i was complaining that my gastric hurts. alot. then he say. WHEN CAN U STAR LEARNING TO TAKE CARE OF URSELF. =X lucky mummy gt cook muah porridge. MUMMY I LURB UUUU... then i eat lor. but aft eating stiu very pain.dono wats wrong... daddy then ask me if i am ok. i bluff him say ok liao. dowan him to worry mahh..haii...was in my rm resting smsing senn.guess fridae i'll be damn girly? lol. sen noes y. if nt girly. i may nt go home. i may die that day. =X LOL....... and pls to all gg the outing. DON SLAP OR TAP OR EVEN TPUCH MY BACK OR SHOULDER. ITS IN PAIN. =D if u touch it. don blame me for scolding u or screaming. XDD~~ k larr. nth to blog liao.

LEISHI GOT A CHAO TA BIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LOLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhhhh

2005-03-15T16:13:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhh!!!!!!! that damn it angeline. JUS SMS ME. "Tml can't go with You. Very sorry. Hope the weather is kind Tml and don't wander too far out into the waters." WAT A GOD FORSAKEN sms. shit. argh. tmr its like 3 pple go niahh??!!! siao. nvm. so long as i go there. haii. dono y. suddenly got a feeling of sadness again. =( i dono wats into me. possesed? ha. yah... angeline. i wont go too far out in the water. i mean sea. cos i will only cross to the other side of that small island. lol. its jus a piece of land. erm.... ya.. that time swim over that side b4. but when the wave got big. we went bk. don worrys la. we will take care one. i jus wanna get muahself tanned. nt get myself drowned. =X lol.. k bah. shant ask u why u cant go. arboh sure to argue over it again. AND AND. of cos the weather will be fine. u very suay chui siahh. todae ask u wann come u say ok see first. then say wat if it rains. duhs.. ur mouth huh. pls be more kind. the weather of cos will be fine lar. if its nt I WILL TEAR UR MOUTH OFF ON THURSDAY. =D peace ok. lols..

=S

2005-03-15T15:30:00.000+08:00

i am growing more and more tired each day. i almost fall aslp on the bus.. lucky gt sen sms me. =D then aft that saw angeline and asraf. omg.. i dint saw them at first. lame. cos i wasnt wearing muah specs. =( couldnt see anything. haha... went to sch for ss remedialas usual. was a open bk essay test. k lor. happy lor. but wats the use. i was so damn fucking cold lor. nonsense. nxt time i don sit last row there liao. so near to the dumb air con. sian man. i was writing and shivering then ytd dint eat much.then todae purposely woke up late one. then also no time to eat. and then aft remedial... went to the beatty sec sch which is located in toa payoh. ya. went to the dnt exhibition. gave ong thiam lye face lor. the bus wasnt even half bus full. so i drag kai go.then kai drag yam go. lol. then aft that return and ong ask the driver to drop us off at yishun and khatib mrt station. then we drop off at north point. went to eat. siao shouldnt have eat laksa. it was nice but it gives me the gastric pain. shouldnt be pain lor.. mayb i add too much chili. =S lucky hao liao. sorry yam and kai. keep kp u all faster go home. eh. i gt things at home to do. and my gastric was really pain. o.o and yam. i noe ur "fur" on ur leg long. BUT WHY BOTHER? lols. nobody is gonna look at ur leg tmr. faint see also see ur face mahh. =X don say so loud in public can.paiseh siahh. kns. abit obscene down here. cannot blog. LOL. erh. should be in sentosa ard 7+ bahh or 8 lidat. discuss tonite again.

and and!!!!!! once exciting part. sorry mr ong. =X i kinda scolded u again todae.did i make u lose face? hahah., the story ish lidat. aft looking at the products ard in the room. ong saw us slcking. and he told me yam and kai that we can take a look ard outside lorrs. then he say give me half and hour more to finish. i was like......... i am tired lor. and i gave him face so i go lor. nw he tell me he needs more time. and without thinking. i blabber out. ' WAT!? 15 minutes onli u wan? take it or leave it. " then all of em goes. O.O . but he was kind enuff. he say it with a big smile. ok lar, take it lor. haha... there was another teacher beside him too. but guess they should noe my pattern well enuff. hope the teacher frm other sch dint see wat i did. or they'll condemn mr ong. >.<>

nonsense

2005-03-14T14:05:00.000+08:00

i will nt be blogging anymore nonsense liao. ha. dowan my surrounding to be affected by muah kns mood. i swear to be happy and i will one. kai. donch worry. i will nt kill u ltr on. i am all calmed down liao. =D promise to have fun ltr on.meeting muah daughter ler then go find Qoo bud, sino kor they all. LOL. have fun ltr ON! oh yeah. but i am nt sure wat are my feelings nw. happy or sad? but i promise to try to be as happy as possible. =S gonna use muah savings to pay my hp bill again.sian. why does this alwaes happen to me.. =S..ha. am i running away frm the feeling of sadness. or am i really nt sad? really hope to know the truth. but i chose to avoid.avoid myself. afraid that the feelings might be true.. i run away. =D
[[last part of muah nonsense. =D]]

sucky

2005-03-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

i cried. i am full of angst. i bang the wall. i drink. i rolled. i am in pain. but its all over nw. i look forward to life that awaits me. nt wanting anymore pain. i do nt dare to reveal my own future. afraid it might be ugly. i was alone. then jie came. she pull me up. but i realised i am stiu stuck in the world of confusions. nth seems to be real. nth seems to be good. argh. i hate myself. for another time. hurhur. ok lar. lets not brood over the matter. its already a fact that u have cried, see i am a mental case. =S toking to myself. kai, i am glad that we have already resolve the misunderstanding btween us. and i gladly know that, we'll be there for one another.=D love u to bits. i promise that i'll nvr make the same mistake again. (u should noe wat i refering to lar hor. ) =D k lar. its a boring day. i sleep i sleep i sleep and sleep. =S jus hoping that every thing will be fine aft i woke up. went to run, see the sun rising with jie. and wat to say? i am feeling much better. hoping tmr nite i will feel even better, huiting jie, u promise de thing cannot don help one hor. =D u shoulde noe wat i refer to. hmmm, thanks to all that have tolerated my nonsense since ytd and todae. i noe u guys must have hated me. but to me, u guys are great, u all took my nonsense. and did nt complain. i broke muah specs cos i had a fall. got blue black again lar. knn... i cant even walk. wat nonsense is that. hahahahahhaha. i am gonna luff all i can nt cry ok.... so don thk u can make me cry..

pain!!

2005-03-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

if this pain is gg to continue. i am dying.. SOMEBODY PLEASE KILL ME. no. SOMEBODY PLEASE KILL MUAH PAIN!!!. my plans for holiday.all cannot accomplished. have to return to sch for 3 days. wanted to go back to malaysia (i nt malaysian ok. my father's side relative in m'sia my father malaysian. erps. nw sg pr.) but gugu they all go china. wats the use of gg back. nobody's gonna cook for miie and i will die. =X bah.. having all those cramps are alrite. but wat happen is that.. IT OCCURS EVERYTIME. and pain like wat. if somebody can hold me. i'll feel better. mummy nt angry with me liao. heng.. but don think she's gonna hug me or wot. pathetic eh? the last time i use to ask her to hug miie, she will say go away larr. iyo. =S am i that nt huggable? i cried. when am i going to stop crying.. DUHZ. and when am i gg to stop making pple angriie? am i a idiot or wat. y did i keep making pple getting upset or wad so eva? somebody pls kill miie.. no.. somebody pls kill my damn bloody attitude.. argh...

supposingly we going sentosa on wednesday or fridae bahh.. wednesday lagi best. fridae thk gt alot pple one. we plan to reach there very early.. yam, can reach there by 6? =X i wanna see sunrise.. but abit too late bahh. reallie enjoy the sight.. =D angela don blame me if i am gonna hold u and cry. =X jk larr. faint.. that tym went so many times, onli manage to catch the sunset. every time miss sun rise. =S wah.. if i gotta shoulder to lean on that will be fantastic. XDD~~~ i sot liao. sorrie hor. =D my bro blast techno todae until i abit addicted again. lols. but i stiu prefer the songs muah baobei send de. too meaningful.. faint tmr jus gonna stay home all day... nt onli tmr sunday also. mondae gonna go sch. the damn MR DE ROZA WAYNE GERARD. how long ish ur name. sot. =X he so kia su. thot he veh slack one? nb... he is seeing us 2 days. plainly for ss. and kns.. no history. i rather history lorr. ok ok.. fine fine.. u guys wanna say i sot again rite? say it all u wan. haii. where is muah ROOF IS ON FIRE de song. faint.. long time nvr listen liao. kinda missing it. =X my holiday is totally ruined.. by the darn cramps..

faints

2005-03-11T21:02:00.000+08:00

omfg. y are girls alwaes the one suffering. i am sure u guys no wat i am toking abt. xiao zhu advertise in irc liao. O,o faint... kip having cramps.. mayb drink too much tea the past month. =S keep rolling and rolling.. todae continuos pain for like 15 minutes? faint. that was the worst ever. phuck. i hate to be a girl becos of this. =X and.. haii.. my hair color all revealing again. ong thiam lye don dare catch miie liao. but gotta auto abit. think gonna dye again. =X

=P

2005-03-10T16:19:00.000+08:00

erps..todae abit bored in sch. thot todae go sch sure tio kan.. but neber wor.. ong thiam lye jus kip quiet. he gave me some ideas lar. but he told me to change the current idea. cos it will take very long to even make one compartment. then my "idea" need quite alot of cpmt. he says if u have the passion, the die die must do attitude, he'll try to help. but i was onli ok bt the idea lorr.. he asked me wat interest miie. before i say anything, they say pig. =/ kns. i told him i interested in history, kids.. then he say, both of this mayb kids are the onli one which can link to this yr de o lvl theme which is "transportation" cos history like gt nth to do with transportation lor. then i was like like DUHZ. lol... nvmm. he is simply the best teacher i ever had. really thank u ferr nt giving miie up. =D u are the onli one who ask miie nt to go ite. otherwise all teacher say if u dowan to study go ite. =S ha, i also told him my finance difficulty in o lvl fee. slightly discuss abt it. todae recess went to makan till wanna puke. drink so much tea todae. =X mummy know, she'll kill miie. suppose to go hiking one lehh. but jsu dint go. cos muah baobei ask me nt to go. =D hehe. kinda sian rite nw.. listening to Zhang Jing Xuan - Wu Neng Wei Li . nice song arh. =P baobei send wo de. but stiu i prefer wang bu liao. =X

nvr knew that SHE will do this. shit. reallie piss off. she bullie muah baobei.. =S kns.. since u choose to made muah baobei life miserable. tell u i can make urs even more miserable ok. don try. well. better don complain to miie ltr. or i'll giving u a good scolding. argh. u made my happi boi unhappy, u're guilty of slandering him. very tired todae. wah. why everyone seems to be suffering frm pms.. =X

ha. forgot to say todae gt 2 free period. liu lao shi came to relieve huang lao shi's lesson. oh muai.. really miss the days he teach us. =D god bless he live his elder yrs happily..

2005-03-09T21:05:00.000+08:00

i am gg nuts over dnt. haii. for the sake of thinking ong thiam lye will help me i drop principles of accounts. faint. that subject also ddrive miie nuts. mayb poa wont be a use to miie. i am nt those business type of mind. my carrer the nxt time sure gt almost nth to do with accounting. =X i cracking my brain over the 10 EOI. not even one came in. die die die. he wans it todae but i nvr gib. tmr stiu nvr give sure die in a pathetic way. lol.. tmr wanted to meet hong ling sis to buy pressies for fren. but i nt free tmr. don ask miie y. =X hmm, then change the date to fridae.. meet her at tampines mall. =S jie u bullie pple. u should come sumwhere near my place. ask miie go to the place near ur sch. =S kns. lols. but nvm go there lor. aft that see where u wan go. don ps miie huh. i noe u zai zai one but sumtimes u stiu practise ps one. =D lols. k lar. nth to blog liao. gotta cut open my brain finding ideas. gt no inspiration man. arghh.. somemore DNT de o lvl fee.. faint exceptionally expensive. lol. k bah. guys out there take care.

mish u =D

as usual

2005-03-09T15:01:00.000+08:00

as usual, my life goes on. ytd 4got to mention bt PE period. fun seh. volleyball.. wanted to play soccer. but i rem wat i promised my baobei. lol... hmm, that new guy in our class. (actually he's a repeat student frm sec 5 last yr) he power siahh. knss.. he start the ball well and good. he in our team larr. they huh, bias.. their team gt 6 pple, then our team 5 nia. u noe wat that dumb andy said? "ur team also got 6 pple mahh." i was like DUHZ. i said " ur maths fail is it. dumb" he goes " 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, his 5,6 was pointing at the same person who was kar siang (sorrie spelling error pls forgive.haven really gt thye chance to noe u.) " i was saying huh? 5! he say kar siang = 2 person... FAINTS! he ur fren seh... knss... lols.. andy another guy who's good at v.ball. siao one lehh all.. so power up.. yiwen wanted to play badminton but i asked her to join us. the dumb pple of our class keep wanting to occupy the court for badminton. i couldnt shoo them off. so told rauff(spelling error again) to shoo them off. he's our teacher. =D nice guy here, thot he was a baddie at first. but kinda nice. he join the other team siahh. kns. but we dint calculate the score as we onli play play. poor yiwen see her hand todae all blue black. my hand gt also. but nt as serious as hers. but i having arm aches and muscle aches. that darn ou yang, lame siahh, the ball land on the grass and trees there, he dowan pick up, take another ball frm the basket.*faints* what kinda a guy is this?! *&%@#)@# i screamed at him. and went to pick the ball up. it happen like 4 times. he dowan pick up. fiakingly ungentleman. kns. hate guys lidat. ytd was the best pe ever man. long time nvr perspire that way ler.. that kinda feeling real good man.

i am so cold nw.. nt air con ok. its the fan nia. freezing icy cold.. should say my feet and hand are icy cold lorr. kns...wats wrong man. i am forevre lidat. faints. but its good u noe.i nvr faint liao. *cheers* =X

toking abt todae. haii. jus nw made baby upset again. =( *tape my own mouth* cried agaiin. cried hard. shouldnt have make hiim unhappy. wad am i doing?! god.. baobei. sorrie... reallie nvr mean to ignore u.. i mish u. =( hope u're nt feeling so cold nw.. my forgetful boii. forget jumper.. faint. must rem nxt tym horr...

~>.<~ diee. haben draw my ideas out. DnT sucks. =X actually it rocks. i only like practical part. hate theory to the core. i will fall aslp. =X hab to buy 3 pressie this mth. dono gt enuf $ boh.. siann. the o lvl haven settle yet. how am i gg to solve it. been saving up but like. haii. 4get it. let nature take its course. one day it will be solve.

HONGLING JIE. Y U PANG SEH MIIE!!! =X k lar. nt ps larr.. i noe u gg to pei bf larr. nvr blame u. i go myself there lorr. tmd, stiu ask miie join u and ur bf.. u all tmm i bth.. hah. anyway. both of ya hab fun.

baobei... er'u ham efil oot. =D i mish u boi. ^^

hmmm

2005-03-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

to my dearest HONG LING jie. k lar. u nt ah lian. u my da jie k? lol. a promise made cannot be broken.=D don ask miie whos that person. ehh.. nvr put tag board bcos some idiots come here tag rubbish. hmmm, jie, sorry larr. this saturday morning we go fishing, u dont push miie down.=X lols.. faints.and don bring ur COLLECTIONS of alcohol. wont drink means wont drink. unless u wan miie to die. =X lols.. hmmm, sorrie lehh aft cant pei u. gotta go doc for check up. must understand thati weak kia. must visit that darn place every nw and then.. *faints* the smell of that place. makes me wanna die. hmm, u wan pei me go to the doc mahh? arboh alone i will sian.must take mc for the hiking thingie. =X LOL.

and erm... haii.. kinda upset ytd.. dono y. but stiu happie. =D hmmm, DIE haven draw the ideas out. suppose to come home and do all those de. but i end up.. zzzzz.... hahah.. my baobei asked miie nt to go cross country. i dint go! lol.. went back to rest. wasnt feeling well though. =D ltr faint nobody pick miie up.. darn. stupid celine lar. kns.. come gek miie. say u all went but don nid run. faintz. win liao lorr..nvr run wont kena detention. u WIN LIAO. =P hmmm.. bah.. nt gonna mention those who made miie angry todae. lucky gt my baobei to cheer miie up. my root of all happiness. =DDD

baobei. listen here hur.

must work hard for ur exams k, first yr ending.
don alwaes slp so late. it affect ur health.
remember wat u promise miie. =D
have fun this sat and must pia all the way till exam.
even u pia. must have pattern one. time to rest u rest. time to eat u eat.
don alwaes think that i dowan u horr.
u are mine!!! =X unless u gt ur gf.
take good care of urself so will i. =D

hong ling jie. listen here hur.

u are a smart girl. do something which suits u.
don alwaes mix with the "gang"
guai guai lar. don drink and smk lerr.
hmmm, cherish ur darling bf horr. nt easy to get one who lvoe u so much. i wan oso mei yo
continue ur studies can? u're smart yet u dowan study.
do take care of ur own health pls.
and bai tuo hor. don show off ur collection of liquors or wadeva. i am nt tempted.
and stop pestering for dee answer. wont tell lehh. =P

to all out there taking o lvl this yr. lets all work hard together. =D cheers to this yr batch.

=(

2005-03-08T19:46:00.000+08:00

can anyone actually believed that my nail is turning PURPLE . faints i am turning into a zombie. =X and its like too cold liao. my fingers and leg are having the numbs and cramps. for goodness sake. i pinch my leg. no feeling. omggg... this is totally insane. i was there saying i turning healthy there, here i am DUHZ.

cold

2005-03-08T19:26:00.000+08:00

liew. thot its hot.. why am i feeling so cold. knss.. thats y i say i donch like winter larr. when i am cold. nobody hold miie. =( i hate to be cold u noe. *cries*
nth to blog todae...

yawns

2005-03-08T18:25:00.000+08:00

kinda sian todae. i noe i gg to kena detention liao lar. lols.. nvm. but rather waste of time though. noe wat? i rather get caned. =X girls 3 days detention, guys i stroke of cane. liew. i rather kena caned, knss.. todae went sch. morning see that kns federick yong. house meeting. knss. scold simi lan lar. nvr scold pple b4 is it. sot. don act big k. =X

scolded 3 pple. dowan to say the situation again, dumb boys, dumb councillors, dumb teacher.

todae survey dae siahh, lol. ask baobei. he noe. =X

i cant believe i haven do dnt work.. sot.. kor, help miie do larr.. =(

i am sad

2005-03-07T21:52:00.000+08:00

jie, u beg miie also no use.i have made the promise to someone. dowan means dowan. =D

yuck

2005-03-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

if u guys actually take notice todae. i gt a bruise on my forehead. that was the lamest thing i did. ever. in life. lols.. i roll on my bed, then *PONG* ouch..knock on my head hard. HARD. i was like... dumb rite? haha..HL jie, cannot. if u all go out drink don ask miie go liao. i cant drink. =X sorrie lar. nxt time treat u eat ice cream k? ur favourite one. wait till i settle my o lvl fees.. zzzz.. i am gonna die frm that problem. but i am stiu the cheerful miie. smile! =D lol... feeling abit better nw. hate to cry. cried abit jus nw. but wat was amazing was. i feel better aft crying. arghh.. who will lend miie his or her shoulder to lean on. even a while also good. this ct results are atrocious. i actually failed my best subject. and that sub is the most impt sub for miie to enter the course! bah.. wat else happen in sch todae huh? 4get liao.. jus rem i need a shoulder so much. to lean on.

2005-03-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

one word to describe my dae todae.. BLOODY SHIT. i thot i would came home bloody. but those cowards dint turn up after all.. thanks to hong ling jie. =D though u dint manage to come down, but thanks for wanting to help. and to Weisen also. thanks for wanting to help. lucky both of u dint come down, or else wasted trip. =D hmmm, todae really cried. in my own eyes... dint let the tears flow out. i failed all subject except chinese. it was a total knock out for miie.. i didnt fare so badly for all this yr. and my best subject, which was english, failed too.zzzzzz... the o lvl standard... was totally nuts. NUTS. cant even write excess reasons. arboh i can get another 10 marks also, that i wont fail. arghh. shit. initially dint wan to go cross country when i was first told that its tmr.. but yam and kailing keep asking miie to go, walk together.. kinda sian abt it. but since they wan miie to go, i go lorr. nvr did i expect that kai will back out the last minute. angela better had walk tmr, if she's gonna run, i rather die down there. waste my money. i already told u guys i dint wan to go in the first place liao. u guys ask miie to go, one set my plane free, the other one u better had walk with miie tmr. arboh u die. =X lols... nvm.. ltr at nite then blog bahhs. sian.

haiii

2005-03-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

this is simply nonsens.
my heart is kinda going out of control.
T.T die
hand and legs are icy cold again.
wats gotten into miie?
hah. everynite also lidat.

boo

2005-03-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

todae wasnt such a good day though. was having slight fever last nite... dint tell my parents though.. zzzz.... but feeling better le bahh. this reminds miie of the day when i was taking the n lvl de maths paper. shitz. that day was maths paper 2 man. 2 days b4 i was suffering frm fever. but my fever dint get well no matter how much water i drank. b4 the maths paper. i actually gt 2 free days to study ferr maths u noe. but how e fuck i noe i will fall sick. ok, u guys may think n lvl maths is easy. but i jus wanna do my best lor. suay like wat. then the 2 free days. i simply cant study.. i was having split headache. bah.. i jus cant manage to study. arghh... wasted those 2 days. that day came. the maths paper 2. i took my temp reading. initially was like 38.6 or so.. i ate some medicine.. then it went down abit but came bk aft a while. that morning i woke up. i dint even slp the whole nite man. i keep measuring the temperature. that very morning i took my temperature, i was darn schocked. 39.8 !!! shit. during the nite it was ard that temp liao. i was so afraid that i would burn my brain. but again i dint dare to tell my dad. i did wadeva could be done to lower my temperature, but no use. bah.. it was so early man... i had to make my way to sch when i am sick, no choice it was the n lvl paper. wat makes me hate myself was this. i reached school. when i was walking frm the carpark to the morning assembly area. both the 4N classes wasnt there. i took a look at the hall. THe LIGHTS WERE OFF TOO!. i was like pls don let me be so suay that the paper is in the afternoon. zz... when i stood there. mr row approached and ask wat am i doing in sch. i say i am here for the n lvl maths paper 2. bah, he said that is in the afternoon. ZZZZZZZ.... i was like phuck. b4 any paper that i am taking i make sure that i check the entry proof b4 going to school. but i dint noe why i dint check. shit.. another suay thing is that my ez-link card gt no money and the bus pass expire i suppose. i have to make my way to the nearest provision shop to change small change to take bus. and i think my fone low battery also. i called home and tell mummy or daddy.. then they say y i so forgetful..my mummy actually asked miie to stay in scH!!!! i was like wat the fuck. i already sick like hell stiu i have to get scoldings frm them. haii... ok i waited for the bus to come and went home. when i was home, i already was fainting. i mean i fainted i think... zzzzz... ltr my mother keep kping miie. ask me to use the spare time to study nt slp. feel like giving her a scolding, but again, i dint want to upset her u see...i jus tok back to her nia. cant blame miie. i really wasnt feeling well.. but i dint dare to say anything. haii. pathetic miie, nobody to love miie and concern for miie and to take care of miie. my mother bo chup miie for the whole day. was crying alone..feel like dying at the point of time. it was reallie bad for miie that day. dint want to go for the paper. but had no choice.. afternoon came. i drag my heavy head to sch. my fever was getting worse. it hit 40.1 degrees. zzzzz...... i feel like dying. wat was worse i was like fainting. took e bus and feel like puking. argh. reach sch ler, enter the hall ler. paper was given to miie. i open up and. O.O i realise that i cannot do man. i calm down abit and try my best. aft the paper i went home, kinda break down. started screaming. banging myself on the wall. i couldnt do the paper. i was like god save miie, i surely fail it.. dad came home, guess they manage to figure out that i was sick. cos i stay in my room whole day. and my face actually got so red. my dad came in and feel my forehead.. he was shocked. he push miie the money and chase miie down to vist doctor. nobody pei miie go again. guess they wont worry bout miie fainting.. haii. got there and the doc say i almost burn my brain. she say i was so silly to carry this all myself. yeah i am silly so wot? dint want pple out there to worry for miie.. that time my head was having a big bruise also. argh... aft that i gt well. was happie again yet sad becos i couldnt do the maths paper. 17th december came. i went back to sch in the stupid uniform with the stupid dyed hair. i look like a sot person. i took the result slip. i cried! 10 points. gam gam ho man. i dint know to be happy or sad. cos i thot i was perpare for ite. i even clarify with my parents liao. but i could make it to sec5 . LOL. sot. hmm.. to my surprised i actually gt a 4 for maths paper. guess i did well in paper 1 bahh.. =D thats the end of it.

todae went out with my daughter. it wasnt so good i suppose. both of us werent feeling good. guess we know wat happen. haii... i went out with u jus becos i dint want u to stay at home and let ur imaginations run wild u see.. hai. went to bugis.. sot.. we took bus there. lol, imagine how long was the journey. i prayed that i wont suffer from bus sick. but i did. i was darn giddy..zzzz... we thot the journey is gg to be very long.. but it was ok larr.. take mrt also ard that time. wat more it was convenient. =D ok, we passed by kranji mrt station on d bus. kailing actually saw THIS FASHION down there. ( a boutique shop) we were kinda surprised. open down there for wat. pple make their way down to kraji is to see the horse run and bet liao. wat else they can do there man. kailing said that the uncles come here to shop meh, again its impossible cos its for women. unless they buying for wife. but don think they so bo liao.. lol. mayb there are some of them. we reach bugis. went to shop ard i think. kailing wans miie to stop smsing.. then ok lorr. we went ard. actuallt she wanted to take neoprints. but i dint want to waste money again larr. i mean i nt enuff money to use ler lor. ltr went to parklane wonton mee there to makan. *slurps* though i ate the chicken mee, we ordered the fried wontons seperately. it was nice. i love it man. yum yum.. we went there todae jus to eat i suppose. =X lol... nth much to do lar. sian.. todae was the first time i saw a different her. thinking i wan to scold her, but again, she's nt in a good mood mah.. must give her consoles instead of scolding herr.. but dint say much though. scare ltr the more i say the more u think. my dear daughter. life ish always lidat. the guy u fancy may nt fancy u. but do think the positive way k? mayb he's jus slping. he'll return u a call one. jus relax.. perhaps u should know him better then confess lorr.. haii.. my poor girl. suffering those she shouldnt have go through. bah, don wanna say so much lerr. arboh ltr the more i say the more misunderstandings arises. in bus suddenly feel like crying, don wish to make further says on this. jus feel like crying but was feeling better. todae i did a great thing. i lend mah shoulder to my daughter. but.. i have no shoulder to lean on when i am sad.. bah 4get it. condemn to be single my life. i don care. i am happie in this current situation. i am bound to love a person ferr life. nobody loving miie. lol. nvm. abit bth jus nw though. sorrie my dear girl, dint gave u much consoles todae. but jus wish to see u happy and woderful again. smile ferr mummie pls!!!!!

reach home lerr.. wasnt looking into the house when i open the door. but i hear the tv sound, it was la bi xiao xing de sound. WHICH MEANS. my dearie cousins are here! i love em. lolss.. they slping nw liao. mummie cook mah food man. i was like DUHZ. i ate outside. zzzz.. i say i eat outside liao. she start nagging liao lorr. then i say ok ok i eat.. have to entertain her some times. or else huh, nxt time she dowan cook ferr miie i die liao. =X mummy forgive miie but the food wasnt that yummy. =Xhaha.. k bah blog till here todae. *prays hard i wont faint later on* kinda giddy nw, and noe wat. HEADACHE ALSO. i wanna bang my head on the wall!!!!! argh. *hugs myself* relax.. lols, nobody to hug miie so gotta hug myself. ok fine i am siao lang.. LOL.. k bahs blog till here todae lerr.. u guys take care.. smiles everyone! =D

haii

2005-03-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

suddenly feeling down again.
kinda emotional rite nw.
hah. nonsense.
blog ard tmr.
T.T

same old routine

2005-03-04T21:30:00.000+08:00

todae de chinese oral wasnt wat i have expected. see, i read the passage, i am stucked with that darn chim word. onli 1 word lar. till nw i nvr figure out wat was it. chheesseee...bah 4 get it. this is the first time i reallie thot that i dint do well. see, i wasnt reading fluently i think. i dint jerk, but i jus thot i sound funny or rather odd... aft reading the teacher. who was frm CHINA ok mind u CHINA. tok to miie bout the conversation part. it was abt the govt putting $100 into our edusave account. i didnt know that they had this kinda system.. i jus said yes i noe. why did i lie? omg.. forget it.. he asked if how would i repay govt. i say we contribute more then we should to the govt ler... don see y should we thank them again. but i will stiu go for govt job. see, miie and angela are so interested in becoming a fireman(women perhaps) nt those sit in office receive calls lehh. its go out to save pple frm fire or wat so ever case. or perhaps i wanna join the air force or navy force. those are my dreams. foolish eh? no girls would wanna go under the harsh training i suppose. lolss.. i told dee teacher i work for the sake of working, nt to really repay the govt. duhZ. aft that i jus dono wat the heck i was saying... zzzzz.... i keep going.. eh, umm, ah, yea.. bLah!!! he's gonna fail miie i thot. then he proceed to the 2nd conversation topic. was abt keeping pets again.o.o think last yr n lvl was also on the pets topic. i dint know how to put "shit and urine" in a nice way. i say the waste material in dee end.. bahahha. but he like don mind i say in the chor lor way lehh.. anyway, i jus said that whenever we are feeling emotional or sad. pets can be a very good companion u see.. it simply gives us the pleasure of that they will nvr reboot wat we say or anything. =D i wish i could keep a dog. but my daddy will nvr allow. =( when i was thinking abt this word i actually ask the teacher to wait. i said " eh, wats that word. (snapping fingers as i tok) eh, teacher wait ah, i think.." T.T i actually did that.. sot one lehh. this is the first time i get so tense up... jus becos of the darn oral. phuck siahh. perhaps he's frm china bahh. nt fair siahh.. why 5N2 gt Mr. Law siahh. my fav teacher and he taught my class for like 4 straight yrs, this yr suay suay, kena frm ng bee ling. BlaHH euuu LAr. i love mr law.. he lied to us siah, say this yr cfm take us, but in dee end nvr.. =(((((((((( sad like wat.. he extended his retirement date as he wanted to follow us till we grad siahh.*touched* but i think it was ng bee ling who wanna take us. ouh ya, when it was my turn for oral, i was kinda flustered.. arghh... nt even o lvl i get so gan jiong siahh. sjb.. *kok myself*this was one of the silliest thing i did. snapping my finger. wat more is surprising is when the teacher asked."are u frm china?" i said "nope" then he say "u are a local singaporean?" i said "yups" he replied "ok, hmmm, very good" was he being sarcastic or wot?! i really cant figure out. i thot i perform badly yea? oh wadeva... its over no use brooding over it....

ahhhh, weisen having formal presentation todae siahh... he kept telling me all and all that made me feel so tense that i start biting finger till my finger was bleeding. T.T am i crazy or wot. i wasnt the one doing the presentation i can get so stress.. zzzzzz... nvm i can expect how nervous he can get. hope everything will go smoothly ferr him *prays hard* =D

todae AISS de house system out liao. knssss... the grp is in such a way that they see the last number on ur ic.. mine was S88****8G lorr.. 0,1 is grp A. 2,3 is grp B. 4,5 is grp C. 6,7 is grp D. 8,9 is grp E. baka, i was in grp e.. i wanna follow mr ong NT THAT VO, is mr ong thiam lye lehh. but we no fate. i was under THAT YONG. phuck.arghhh... that was the suayest thing that happen to miie todae. sec4,5 onli gt like 30 girls. HEY WAIT.I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT DARN VICTOR ONG THE PHUCKING GAY IS IN MY HOUSE TOO. PHUCKKKK..... argh, he calculated, onli gt 30 girls in sec4 and 5. sec 5 onli gt 3 of us lehh, i mean girls. kns.. that means we are rare ppel. =D hahahah. sott..they need like 20 girls to join the competition for the corss country. but i kept siaming away frm the request. i say i dint wan to run, or i say i gt asthma. i dint mention i gt low blood+gastric though. i don find a need to tell them the truth. ciao... lucky nvr dio... hahahah... but girls are running 3.7km i think. fiaking long. cross country is coming this tuesday. which is 8th march. U NOE WAT. I AM GG HIKING AT MAC RITCHIE 2DAYS LTR. GOSH. TELL U FIRDAY IF I GO SCHOOL. i would keep kping abt the bone muscles ache i am having. arghh... sot.. y am i so suay man... zzzz... i hate mikael LOKE. argh. organise ltr lar.. so early rite aft the cross country.i know u all hate miie in that school lar. but don so cruel to miie lar. duhz.. my bones are gonna break. i said i dint wan to go to cross country earlier. i rather spend money go polyclinic to take mc. worth more still... my knee de old injury stiu ard siah, wan me run.. *faintz* hope i survive the "ordeals" bahh.... todae assembly, tan boon seng said that mayb nxt yr he'll register us for the marathon for dono wat. 40+km i think. we went AH!? but i remind tmy class mate tehy all say remember, we wont be here nxt yr liao lehh. AHHAH.

k bahh, nth else more to blog.. my thumb is swelling up. bahh... seems like gt sumthing stuck inside lehh, but its the sch badge leh, nt bee sting miie lehh, not possible gt thing stuck inside. omg.. wadeva. hope my poor thumb get well soon.. =DDDDD

linkin park numb/encore (feat. jay-z)

2005-03-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

Thank you, thank you, thank you, you're far too kind

Now can I get an encore, do you want more

Cookin raw with the Brooklyn boy

So for one last time I need y'all to roar

Now what the hell are you waitin for

After me, there shall be no more

So for one last time, nigga make some noise

Get em Jay

Who you know fresher than Hov'? Riddle me that

The rest of y'all know where I'm lyrically at

Can't none of y'all mirror me back

Yeah hearin me rap is like hearin G. Rap in his prime

I'm, young H.O., rap's Grateful Dead

Back to take over the globe, now break bread

I'm in, Boeing jets, Global Express

Out the country but the blueberry still connect

On the low but the yacht got a triple deck

But when you Young, what the fuck you expect? Yep, yep

Grand openin, grand closin

God damn your man Hov' cracked the can open again

Who you gon' find doper than him with no pen

just draw off inspiration

Soon you gon' see you can't replace him

with cheap imitations for DESE GENERATIONS

Now can I get an encore, do you want more

Cookin raw with the Brooklyn boy

So for one last time I need y'all to roar

Now what the hell are you waitin for

After me, there shall be no more

So for one last time, nigga make some

What the hell are you waiting for

[sighs] Look what you made me do, look what I made for you

Knew if I paid my dues, how will they pay you

When you first come in the game, they try to play you

Then you drop a couple of hits, look how they wave to you

From Marcy to Madison Square

To the only thing that matters in just a matter of years (yea)

As fate would have it, Jay's status appears

to be at an all-time high, perfect time to say goodbye

When I come back like Jordan, wearin the 4-5

It ain't to play games witchu

It's to aim at you, probably maim you

If I owe you I'm blowin you to smithereeens

Cocksucker take one for your team

And I need you to remember one thing (one thing)

I came, I saw, I conquered

From record sales, to sold out concerts

So muh'fucker if you want this encore

I need you to scream, 'til your lungs get sore

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless lost under the surface

Don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

I've become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb

Can I get an encore, do you want more (more...)

I've become so numb

So for one last time I need y'all to roar

One last time I need y'all to roar

boots.

2005-03-03T22:08:00.000+08:00

grayvien, thanks for the idea arh... but i will nvr fail my o lvl jus becos i wanna join the navy. sot. i wont wan to waste my money. duhs... i join navy nt becos i wanna work for govt. i work for the sake of interest. stop toking cock to miie can? bah.. blahhhhhh... stop being lame. i will sign up either for navy or anything i shall be interested in. if can i hope to to join the civil defence force. =DDDDD angela is itnerested too!!! hahah..

be it u think i am crazy or wat. but i will jus do my part to complete my o lvl. then i shall head for my ambitions!

tuning into jay

2005-03-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

i am crying like i nvr cried b4. jay's song are so touching.

bah! my foolishness is killing miie!

2005-03-03T20:47:00.000+08:00

wat the phuck is wrong with miie todae? or should i say wat is it that made miie behave strangely this few daes. i dono could somebody give miie a clue? phuck. i am hating myself even more. i could instantly spoil one's mood. would somebody OR ANYBODY PLEASE KILL MIIE?! i dowan my presence to caused so much unhappiness. arghh... am i driven nuts by u guys or am i driving myself nuts. phuck. almost all ct papers came bk. it was totally, TOTALLY nonsense. i actually failed almost all subject?! i nvr fair that bad ever. EVER IN MY LIFE. am i crazy!? should be. this common tests was a TOTALLY KNOCKOUT FOR MIIE. my mum is gonna cry when she sees this.

guess wat. i am stupid enuf to go poke myself with my darn sch badge.and it went in so DEEP. phuck. i was bleeding so much. its TOTALLY INSANE. and the blood was stuck in there. till nw. its pain. stiu pain. phucking pain. wonder if my mother gt chopper. feel like chopping off my thumb. and thats it. i am stiu worrying if i will have infections down there or nt.i dint noe whether the badge was rusty nt. that hole actually turn purple. ouh pls kill miie. stop the nonsensical torture being implement on miie. bah...

i am asking pple to kill miie? i dowan to die yet. see see see!!!!! i am insane! i dowan to die yet. *cross fingers pray hardly that i wont die frm the rusty badge* haii. forget it. my father is my stress of my life. his leg are often suffering frm pain. i dono why. he have visit the doctors so many times. and he doesnt get better. WHY?! why is god torturing him. pls send the torture to miie. i hate to see him work so hard for us and he is suffering himself. yes he is complaining every now and then but we jus cant understand how much pain he is gg thru. i jus simply hope his leg will get better.

did i said anything bt my brother ytd. he lost his keys!!! worse thing is lost together with IC. omg.. this morning, becos of the lock, i stood outside the door foe ten minutes. PHUCK. jus becos of the darn lock. arghhhhhhhh... ITS DRIVING ME NUTS. TOTALLY NUTS!!!! when i went home urgently this aftternoon aft sch, wanting to charge my HP DESPERATELY. BAH. MY MOTHER WENT OUT. i don have the key for the new lock. i was super darn angry with both my brother and mother. somemore phone low batt, have to make my way down to VISTA POINT to make a phone call. dumb. but aft much thinking, shouldnt blame my brother or who lar.. everybody also make mistakes. i do that too. but my brother dint scold miie. or wat. y am i blaming him? i lurve my brother so wat? but our relationship arent as good as when we were young. i simply miss those days wherre u alwaes sayang miie alot.

when my brother was like in kindergarten 1, 2. which means i am like onli 3 (freaking long ago,) when he gt goodies bag frm classmate when his classmate celebrates bd in sch, he alwaes nvr fail to bring home for miie. he noes i love goodie bags. my mother told miie, ur kor love and concern u alot did u noe that? i didnt get to realise it. until this few years. my mother told me bt the past.my mother went to fetch my bro aft sch. then my brother was holding his goodie bag. my mummy said, " ur fren all open up the goodie bag and eat the goodies ler, y u nvr open up?" brother said, " i want to bring home for meimei to eat." at first my mother told miie this, i dont believe. but somehow i seem to recall something. my brother treat me so good, but i simply took him for granted. perhaps my daddie pampered miie too much and i took everything for granted. everytime i play with my toys, i nvr kepp one. leave it on the floor everywhere. daddie came bk, he nvr ask and started scolding kor. but kor dint hate miie. he jus kept quiet, nt pushing the blame to miie. he keep it. but i dint care bt it.. till when i was sec 1. our relation gt so bad that i even say i will nvr call him kor again. i didnt noe why. till when i was like sec3, i came to senses. my brother concerns for miie, yes he do. but he dont show it. though his tones to miie were harsh, i stiu understand y. i made so many mistakes. but... u were the one, who forgive miie time aft time. nw i really have the urge to say "i am sorry kor, for my past mistakes. "i lurve my family, they are the best.

mummie always tell me don be a "cum gong kia" be smart. don think frens are everything to u. they will eventually leave u. they cant be trust 100% totally. i dint believe my mother. till last yr, i finally see some of those true colors. i finally noe wat my mother mean.

pple, todae blog posting mayb nonsense to u, but this is wat i feel. how i feel. one day. this one day. i will bring this word out frm my mouth, "u are the best brother i ever had." =D

siansationsss

2005-03-02T21:48:00.000+08:00

i was kinda dio chua todae in class.. for the sake of o lvls, i dint skip lessons anymore! but. instead i gt another scare todae. lols... mdm koh was blabbering abt the o lvl result this yr for combined science. then i was kinda slping away.. she wasnt teaching wat. haha... hmm... then she blabber half way she screamed siahh. and a big bang sound. i was shocked siah. i thot the whiteboard fall frm the wall.. zzzzz.. i saw her like siaming away frm the teachers table. u noe wat happen? hahah. i was luffing my heads off. the leg of the table broke. it was broken initially, but the darn general office, dint do anything siah, so we have to make do with it. iw as alwaes the one reminding the teacher that the table was dangerous.nobody else tell the teacher. but too bad i was slping todae. dint have the time to save mdm koh. lol. lucky she's alright. the laptop fell off the table. she say heng, nt mine, its the sch one. otherwise i'll scream again. lame siaaaaaaaaaa... lol... sot one.
siansations... my mother called, to ask me to call the bank to report loss of atm card for my brother. this kinda thing how to help one. must call himself one mahh.. to verify his identity. bah i dint bothered to call. i thot my bro onli lost his atm card. he came home knocking on the door. i was lyk, man, he must have lost his keys too. kuku siah. how come lost... this was ok. scully daddy come home ler. he say he lost his ic also. o.o wat the heck?! and he dont seem to worry wee bit abt it. my father was kping all the way.. sians. i am innocent lehh, i jus help bro to clarify that smokers, need time to quit smoking mahh, then daddy screamed at miie. argh. i shaddup la. then i check todae's 4D big sweep. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the first prize!!! 6134!!! i bought 6137 man. it was daddy hp number. Y NVR OPEN 6137!!!!!! arghhh... otherwise i couldd afford for the o lvl lerr. sians... then i can also use the money to treat my buddies mahh. kuku...
guess wat. my brother was so dumb to actually let my daddy realised he's stiu smoking! argh. so many things happen todae. sian lar.

zzzz

2005-03-02T11:41:00.000+08:00

they told me lots. alot on studies. but have anyone ever reallie noe wat i wan? nobody bothered to ask. they jus told miie wat will be good for miie. stiu i thank u pple for the help all along dee way. =D i thot i have woke up aft celine's talk. but i don think i have wake up totally. need someone to push me. a far push. out frm the world of illusions and confusions. i dowan to be stuck there for ever. will someone, hold my hand tight? guide me along the way? bah. i am dreaming again. do i have to wait till nxt yr, till i start regretting? when the result slip is pushed into my hands? nah i dowan to regret. nobody likes to. miss lee ah, thanks for dee concern u showered on miie. reallie appreciate it.
be it i am a slacker, lamer or crapper. i will work towards my goal. nobody can stop miie. in fact. nth can stop miie.
I need a [Miracle] to find [The spirit of yesterday],[coming thru the light],I finally found my [piece of heaven] and [Fall in love] with my [little june]..I felt [poison]ed by her.In [The ryhthm of the night],I shed a [million tears] ,waiting for her to [come home][tonight].In the [Sound of love],we then realised that [Love is a soldier].I hope that she will [Stay with me] for more than [7 yrs n 50 days] cos she is my [Private Fantasy].How I wish she can [Be my Lover] and see the [Stars in the night] with me...But in [The end],she still [Runaway] and left me [Crying in the rain]...I am [Lonely] again.

whoa nice rite? so creative. took frm somebody de testi de. nvr say copyright arh, so i copy paste. lols. this truly describes it all. those who listen to techno will noe what are those [words] referring to. hah.

lucky or unlucky. ferr u to judge.

2005-03-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

whoa, so many things happen in sch today. lucky or unlucky, its ferr u to judge. but i believe its my suayness... this morning, reach school darn early. onli see the COWARD in our class standing outside. class door haven open siah. that dumb yiwen larr... arghh.. ltr my GIRLFREN (SUHAIZAD) reach sch lerr.. then went to his class to sit ffirst lorr. we are onli sch mates larr. don get jealous k.. =X hah... it was the earliest timing for this yr man. sot one.. hmmm, aft that hendra shared his breakfast with miie lorr. thanks my hendra bro! hah. onli some of u are stiu nice to miie. i appreaciate it man. ya, ltr went to hall for the darn assembly. THAT TKJ we raise money to install air con in the hall, but scully say the money nt enuff. duhz... it was farking hot in the middle siah. there wasnt any fans ard our area. siann.. hot like wat. lucky todae forget bring pe t shirt. so nt as hot as them lar..
mr row was in charger of todae de programme in hall. they went to india during the holidays i think. the childrens there very poor thing. nxt time gt chance i also wanna go there do voluntary work...=D i am a SAINT. lols. no larr.. i swear if gt chance will go there, their living conditions werre so jialat man.. hai so sad for them.. hmmm, mr row show us their pic.. yups.. aft the presentation, TKJ step up to the hall and wanted to gave a speech. we went BOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! lols... aft that he tok and tok keep repeating siahh.think repeated for 3times at least? kns.. but i was slping thru it lar. =P lols....aft that, he annouce that tmr sch's having a half day. the whole dead hall came to life siahh. we go YES. lols... quite lame larr. if wan might as well don go sch tmr...siann.... ltr mr row say that since our sch so good, we should sing our school song, then up with stand, sang the song.. lols.. sot sot one...
hmmmm, ltr on chemistry lesson, was planning to skip.. but since i made a pact with wei sen and celine that i'll study hard, i shall fullfil my words. return to class right aft the free period... then mrs tan sae proceed to chem lab lorr.. heng ah, todae don nid stay in class listen to her nagg...hahahah... i was searching for my TYS chem prac ex bk. couldnt find it. bah, share with yam lorr. hah.. when we reach there. sense something wasnt rite. but jus cant seem to figuere it out lor. nvm mrs tan did the experiment first then ask us to follow her procedures. she stress on time and time that we are supposed to be careful as the liquid in the test tube which we heat will fly out. then ok lorr... went to the front to collect the zinc powder arh? or wot i dono larr.. went bk to put hydrochloric acid in it, then heat it over the bunsen flame lorr.. i asked angela on for me ma... then when she on, i was like WHOA. its abit strange, the fire like sibei strong lehh.. but i dint bothered abt it larr. who cares anyway... ltr i happily heat the test tube lorr.. at first boil lerr, but forgot to light the splint so heat again as the splint is light up. but scully the liquid nvr fly out. IT WAS THE TEST TUBE WHICH GOES. "PIAK" it break,.. guess the fire too strong or wat.. nt sure bt it larr.. how the hell i noe wat happen.kns.. they go, wa lau u violent kia is it. lidat also can break. arghh, nt my fault wat. but i fark care bt it lar. hahahah.. then aft that i take another test tube to the front to redo the experiment, but mrs tan keep the zinc something liao. then sua lorr... i went bk to sit down, at first played with the slpint. then kinda boring, so play with the wooden peg. was helping angela with the test tube heating, but she wans to do herself ma. so cannot blame me for playing with fire.=X but that wooden peg jus wont burn up lehh, so i sit there, bbqing the peg... suddenly and it was SUDDENLY OK. think the rubber pipe connected to the bunsen burner split open or wat. nt sure. AND this moment, the split up area is leaking gas i suppose.. IT GOT CAUGHT ON FIRE!!!!!! zzzz, at first the fire was small stiu calm and think it was fun... scully the longer it gets, the fire gets bigger!!!!! OU YANG THE COWARD OF THE CLASS WAS THE FIRST ONE TO RUN AWAY. i thot it was gg to explode. i was damn petrified. tried to put off the fire, but the melting rubber piece flew on my hand siah, i went ouch.. pain siah. gt one hole there. 0.0argh... and angela was funny. as she scream, she splash water at the fire, but she dint aim properly.. i was wondering is she naive or wat? sometimes water make the fire grow bigger! mrs tan poor thing siah, she came to the back of the class room to check wat was happening, then she saw the fire she was shocked too.. she RUN ok RUN!!!! to the front to off the main gas pipeline. its normal to run BUT SHE WAS PREGNANT. b4 she could off the gas hur, syafiq and nabil came to the back, risk their hands and off the gas for miie. i was like phew...
liew, they all keep saying miie.. say i very cruel, make mrs tan to run while she's having a baby in her stomach. at first wasnt guilty, but they kip saying and scolding, till i feel ashamed and guilty lorr.. haii.. i was the one who was hurt okae. nobody concern yet they blame miie.. hai.. the rest of the chem lesson, i sat there.. my face was pale white. suppose i was traumatised. lolss. syafiq look at miie and said realx larr.. he also thinks that i am traumatised by the incident. kns... i jus stare into the black space. and did nth.. argh.. i hate the bunsen burner siahh... aft that mrs tan say, whoa, i teach chem so long liao, this is the first time so scary. ok fine it was my fault. i dint noe y the fire started. angela was rite beside miie, ask her. we were jus fiddling with the equipment, suddenly it caught on fire.how the fark i noe wat happen siah. teacher stiu ask miie.. i say it jus started, i dint start it. fark. darn guilty.. aft that apologize to her lerr then she say nvm, i felt abit better.. pheww.... my hand is stiu pain nw.. nobody asked abt it siah. haii.. sad...
k, aft sch, we went parliament house. one word. SIAN. i almost fell asleep there.. haha.. the christine they all were stiu making noise siah. siao one the guider already said no toking liao mahh.. iyo... aft awhile we went into this ROOM which was sound proof so as to nt interrupt the session ongoing process. the guider explain to us wat were the things use for, and how were they seated. in front of the tall chair, gt this clerk and her assistant. in frnt of them gt alot of documents. i wasnt aware wat was it then, aft that. the guider explain to us. he say the green books were the speech of the past years made during the parliament. then he said, the red books are the laws in singapore, he said. " if anyone of u wans to be a lawyer here, u'll have to study and remember the stuffs in the books." i go omg... wth... the red books were the majority occupying the space. say um, 4wwere green bks and 7 were red one. SO THERE WERE 7 LAWS book. god. nvm abt that. 7 then 7 lorr, the problem is, the book is so darn thick!!! and i believe that inside are those tiny words ok.. GOSH, my brain rotten one, how to remember siah. goondo! don think i am fit to be a lawyer ler ba... hahahahha....

strees out!

2005-02-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

i am nt dee 1 taking o lvl result siah.. dono y i so nervous. till nw, stiu can feel the excitement in da hall... haii... hope the nxt yr i would be the one gg crazy over my results. cos i scored too well. =X lols... hope so bahh, thanks celine for psychoing miie. reallie siahh. although u dint tok for long, but i gt the sudden urge to clarify everything i dono. hai. the thing i feel very bothered is onli the $ souce. this really freak miie out. to u guys, perhaps the amt is okae. but to miie. i am darn stress.. hah. i wont have dee thot of gg ite ler bahh.. i wanted to go there. but my family all don let. so have to go sec5. PS: TO THE EXPRESS STREAM PPLE IN AISS. PLS DON THINK THAT U GUYS ARE SO CLEVER THAT U GUYS CAN DESPISE ON THE NA AND NT OKAE. WE ARE JUST ABIT MORE PLAYFUL. AT LEAST WE PLAYED HARD AND STUDIED HARD. U NERDS IN AISS? STUDY HARD AND FOOL ARD HARD. U GUYS NVR REALLIE ENJOYED IN SCH DID YA? BAH! DOWN WITH THE EXPRESS STREAM PPLE! U SARKERS. STOP LOOKING DOWN ON US. NO BIG DEAL STUDYING IN EXPRESS OK. DO NT CRY THEE NXT YR IF U PPLE DINT MANAGE TO GO INTO JC. AT LEAST THE NA AND NT KNOW HOW TO LOOK AT DEE BRIGHT SIDE. ITS NT THAT WE ARE LYING TO OURSELF. BUT WE TRIED WORKING HARD, Y CRY? EXPRESS PPLE IN AISS, PLS TOUCH UPON UR SOUL, AND ASK, WHAT IF U WERE IN NA? HOW WOULD U FEEL? THOUGH WE ARE NT AS GOOD AS U ALL IN ACADEMIC RESULT, DOESNT MEAN WE ARE USELESS K. DON TEST MY PATIENCE BY WALKING PASS ME AND GIVE ME A DIRTY LOOK AND SAYING "NORMAL ACADEMIC ONE". I GIVE U 2 TIGHT SLAP. TRUST ME NT? HAH.
sorrie for all the caps. but i am so agitated by wat u guys done todae. to pam and grayvien, so wot u can go into jc? u go mad studying day and nite. i am gg to get my o lvl cert and diploma cert. jus all of u wait. i'll do myself proud somedays. and if u are gg to show off, pls donch call me. argh. and to my cousin ben, don tok cok in front of my mother k. i noe u scored well for this o lvl result. stop the cocking session down here k. phuck. so darn bothered by u pple.spoil my mood. argh.
to NA and NT peeps. we are nt hopeless. smile will we? =DDD if we are hopeless, dee sch wont even want us. y kip us in sch. thats the reason why we are in sch. cos we are as clever, onli we too lazy. buck up and don let dee express pple in AISS look down on us. we have the hidden potential in us. bring it out. i love u guys man. we the normal stream in AISS rocks.
haha. to other pple who see my blog, and who are express pple but nt frm my sch. i am nt against u guys horr.. onli against the express in my sch nia. cos they SARK. (sucks) lol. i believe those who despise the normal stream pple are facing extinction lerr. DOWN WITH THOSE WHO DESPISE US!
take care peeps. shall stop here. sorrie, may have wrote alot of nonsense. but this is how i feel larr. hmmm, shall finish here. =PpPpPpP
ps for those who depise leishi a.k.a sam in aiss. I AM NT GG TO ITE ANYMORE OK. WAT CAN U DO? hah.i'Ll pass my o lvl and get into poly. sorrie hur. u guys gotta suffer by hearing and seeing me ard in sch his last yr. aft o lvl, u beg miie stay in AISS i also wont sty. pay me money also dowan lehh. but if u wan to see me outta AISS this yr, no way man. sad to say this. but nobody's gonna stop me frm reaching my target. =D
NA NT in AISS rocks the hella! bleah!
no dirty looks pls, or my palm print will be printed on ur face for 1 whole wk.
i am gg to score in o lvl and get into poly, wat can u do? hah. nobody's gonna stop miie frm studying!

o lvls release

2005-02-28T17:21:00.000+08:00

its one stressful day for all pple collecting o lvl results yea? when i am in da hall. i felt the tense too. i mean i wass so excited, or should i say, worried ferr them? hah. i nt sure. but one thing ferr sure. i really hope that i can pass my o's too. i donch wan to be despise on by other pple. so wat if u guys gt like 5-9 points. jc nia. big deal is it, stop showing off to me can. if u waan call me or sms me jus to show off ur results, better don, or u will get a good scolding frm miie. don try miie okae? cos i don feel like scolding anyone todae. hmmm... nidzam its ok if u fail it, nt say its ok. but its already over, think so much also no use rite? failing maths and science can retake mahh. but if u have ur own plans drawn up, then go ahead with wat u wan in ur life. make thee right choice. if u reallie plan to go to art sch, go ahead. i'll be there to support u mah buddie. =D no matter wats ur choice. as long as ur talents wont go wasted.
huiting ah... my brother de beloved girl! lols... hmmm, 19 pts is nt as bad larr.. iya english is nt impt de lar.. unless u wan to take same course as me eg. law and management, u nid to have good results in english.. but nvm larr.. don think u will wan to take on such a tough course. hmmm, perhaps theres any poly in mind? hah, see told u that u cfm + gurantee + chop chop will pass it mahh. told u that u wont take over my brother ler.. cos i guess he can make it to poly too..lols... hmmm.... L&M siahh... u will spoil the lawyer's image if u ever become one.. erm, quite true bahh.. but i am more into juvenile cases. i fark care abt adults problem, jus wanna help the kids ard. iyo i think too far lerr..hahah... sot liao...some of u, haven tell me ur result yet. haven noe wat to write. but hope to hear good news frm u guys yea? love all of u !!! muacks!!!

street culture

2005-02-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

haven been a good day. dint happen to see serena frens cry or wot. have they forgotten bout it? or is it they dowan to think so much. bah. wadeva it is. our sch did very well this yr like wat TKJ said. i don care give a damn to it. have a sense of feeling if i don start working hard, i will be the shame of sch nxt yr. DUHZ. i am stiu very fan about the o lvl fees. hai. this is so farking a nuisance. once i think off it, i gt no mood to study man. and todae.. during history lesson, celine kip psychoing me to continue study in sec 5.. cos when i receive some of my CT paper back. BOO! it was darn lousy. fark. even the teacher say i'll be wasting my one yr there and money there. i was like. WTF. as celine psycho miie, i reallie went into deep deep thots. she told miie, i have been already studying so many yrs. nw all i have to do is struggle for another few months, i'll be in poly. jus that few months. i was thinking who could help miie, i mean i couldnt find anyone who would wan to help me, as i am a vomit blood case.. the teachers all tell miie. u fared real bad for the test this time. haiii...this is the second time i have reallie gone into deep thoughts. celine said : "u have already study for like 10 yrs lerr, if u wanna dropout nw, y struggle for the last few years. " and ya.. i have been struggling since sec3 why nt continue for this yr, and work hard for wat i wan. its onli jus few months away. do well and go into the poly i wan. and things will be easier for miie. she was rite. if i relax nw, i would have to struggle the next time when i have to come out for a job. darn, i reallie miss the days we had in primary sch seh. oh man. weisen told me if i don go tp he will nt tok to miie.. and becos of wat celine and weisen told miie, i reallie think.this is the first time i reallie started thinking of wat i want. thanks celine. reallie love u. one thing i was pissed of todae was becos of catherine when pple tok to miie, u better shaddup ok. nobody asked for ur opinion. i am nt afraid if u see this entry. best if u see. then u shall learn to shaddup. stop asking miie to get out of aiss and proceed to ite hor. u were the one teacher asked u to dropout. better STFU. stop behaving lyk a moron siahh. tmd. if it wasnt for celine stopping miie, i would have start a fight with u. damn it. better don provoke miie. stay away ok. and stop thinking that u can read my mind. so wat i started thinking. none of ur business. and don think i will take ur words in heart. I FARK CARE ABT wat u SAID. i wont GO TO ITE. NVR OK. arghhhh... first time fail chinese. but mdm ng purposely passed miie, thot she was bias to miie? hah. nvm.. feeling better all wat celine said. she's my second mother in sch.she offers me help by wanting to see miie once everyweek to go through work with miie, thankiews celine.it was nice of u. the pple in my class.. wont offer help to miie de larr.

haix

2005-02-27T14:50:00.000+08:00

life is do darn unpredcitable.
its nt wat we wanted.
its alwaes our fault.
we had nvr been correct in making our choice.
its always a impossible case.
i am confused.

jus some quotes

2005-02-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

LeaF's departure is bcuz of WiNd's pursuit,or is it TreE dint Ask leaf2stay?

("__LiFe iS jUsT LiKe a DrEaM__")
("x__LiFe iS jUsT a iLLuSiOn__x")
("__x LiFe iS eVeRyThiNg aBoUt yOu x__")

__+ i wish fairies exist in this world, so i could make my wish
__+ i wish i could spread my wings n fly away, so i could leave the world full of sorrows

`+` ur smile warm my heart

if every dream i have is of euuu, i would wan to sleep forever

i will live.
even without euuu.
i am still miie,
the girl whom u once loved.
but i no longer need ur love.

Tears are always welling up in my eyes.
There is always a voice inside me,
Comforting me,
Telling me not to cry..
But i just couldn`t hold back my tears.
telling myself once again.
i shouldnt be waiting
Waiting for the happiness.
Which was lost a long time ago.
i will never wan to find it back again.
I will cherish the happiness i have before miie

these are jus something that i have thot of, or extracted frm sites which i found was meaningful. no mood to blog anything much todae. sorrie!

gastrich arhhhh

2005-02-25T21:57:00.000+08:00

ouh ya... 4got to say.. todae skip the POA test lehhh.. succesfully get rid of that subject lerr.. haha.. free for almost d whole day.. ahahha..was in class playing poker cards with the guys again.. then dint go for recess... i was having gastric by then. i was like going to puke my lung out. o.o lame rite. but i was having that kinda feeling.. went to sun plaza again. stiu nvr eat, eat the grass jelly nia, its like so sick of eating, so shared with yam... haha.. i was feeling full but at the same time gastric stiu pain. sian until i came home it feel better nia.... hai... pls do nt let me have gastric pain again.. haha.. todae eat one meal nia!!! ^^

gastric!!!

2005-02-25T21:17:00.000+08:00

OMFG. so sian todae. got back my Physic test paper wasnt within my expectations. lucky gt retest. i am gonna work for it... hahah. hmmm.. went to kailing house AGAIN. duhs.. yam went there also..i went to make a ez-link card. and god, aint i one lucky person. don nid pay money arh! lols... ummm ya... ok.. went to kailing house. was thinking wanting to watch horror vcd again... but.. it dint proceed as we plan to.. char bor kia kailing help me and angela put nail art on our legg de nail!!! omg, so darn gurly, but i kinda like it cos its black!! haha... um ya.. i was lyk online slacking.. nth special happen though... ahha... when angela was logging into frenster, helping emily to write testi, her mum called i supposed. haha.. then saying her cousin wendy is gg back to australia lerr. ask her go home to prepare to send wendy's plane off.. it was lyk 5pm ler... dee plane is flying off ard 6+ i was wondering how would she catch the plane. lol. hmm, so me and kailing thot both of us watch the vcd lorr... the EXORCIST. sot lar.. kailing was watchingg then i was there slping. nt nice to watch.. don even noe wat the story abt + nt horror for me. duhz.. aft gg out with huiting, on my way home... this darn looking ah beng diao me.. i bo chup lor. dowan trouble. normally i diao back one lar. but abit childish. hah.. then he approach me lorr.. he gave me a tap. ask me chup where wan. i was like.. DUHZ lame like phuck. then i say 999. he replied. u think i jk. i said. i aint jk.,i say if u nt beng don act beng ok! and follow by a phuck word. hah. i say i call police u stand here don run ok. then he scolded lotsof vulgar. duhz.. gt lots more. but dowan say. lame lorr.. then i scold him farker then i board d bus and leftt.. haha.. lame....

todae blog post is abit lame though.. don blame me!

omg.

2005-02-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

kinda sprain my neck. wots into me. am i jus suay or wat. haha. simply gt so much to blog todae man.forgot to mention something darn farni.. this morning, i was phucking tired. and when the darn VICTOR ONG (PHUCKING GAY also the ACTING VICE PRINCIPAL.)i wonder wat will happen if he becomes the darn vp. fauzee would be great stiu. ouh ya, as i was saying the darn victor ong, was complaining that pple are complaining our sch pple keep tucking out shirt. and ask us to tuck in nt fold in. and phuck, my blouse is so tapered liao, if u wan me to tuck all in i will look like a? omg, cant imagine it... pls lorr. our sch gt so amny farking rules. and ok.. aft hearing wat he said. i scolded. he's nt even a vp, why the phuck he tok so much, i don lyk his attd. opps, miss chua, the class form teacher frm 4T1 heard wat i said. then aft that she came to my class relieve she asked me wat i said. she think i was scared to repeat wat i said. nono. i wasnt/ i repeated, she goes, whoa. hah, she said my hair was stylo, but it has grow so long that it isnt anymore. i was like acting this accent out. and todae i dono how many tyms i have said this word... TOTALLY. lol..

this coming monday, guess alot pple will be crying. noe y? this gurl frm sec5 last yr pass away.. cos of a car accident, i was like phucking stress when i noe it was her. meng ling serena, rest in peace. haizzz...... i am phucking stress up nw..

DuHz

2005-02-24T20:52:00.000+08:00

zzzz... i noe i am stupid enuff jus to knock into the darn lamp post... so stop LUFFING. omg.. i was lyk bending down all the way as it bleed lorr... jus wanting to reach a toilet which can lemme wash up! as i dowan to stain my shirt. gawd SAVE ME PLS. stiu so suay. arghhhh... and todae guess wat. i BANG THE WALL, cos i was browsing the magazine. haha, phucking moron... jus don noe why i would be that stupid. lol... sian like wat.. and YES! SHUTTER was nt a scary movie for me man. it was lyk... DARN, i wasnt even scared a wee bit. don say i action but tis true. though there was one particular scene that i scream lar. cos i wasnt fast to response to the ghost appearance.. oh ya me n angela my HAMSTER was at my char bor kia, kailing house watching the darn film. AND that STUPID YAM, actually manage to guess that the ghost will appear rite beside the guy, when i was scolding her, the darn ugly ghost pop out. i go AHHH nia. but wasnt scared jus shock, couldnt react fast. everyone screamed, did we? lols other then that i am jus excited when disc 2 was played. felt like dozing off.. haha... my char bor kia, always cover the face one. gt watch lyk nvr watch. haha...

my hamster, angela, was like freaking out lorr... when we going home, kailing walk us down, then both of them were complaining bout the ghost sitting on that guys back, and they were kinda imagining it. i told yam that i will call her tonite!! haha, thot yam wasnt afraid. DIHZ, i was wrong. both of them kip discussing bout the darn ghost sitting on that guy shoulder. then suddenly said, my neck kinda hurts.. omg. GALS stop imagining things.. that wasn't one of the scary movie i'vve watch. i can say. the ring was better.=X don KILL ME PLS.lols... hmmm... i wish i can have a nitemare tonite. =D~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ so long nvr had a nite mare ler... LOL. u guys must be saying i sot ler... pls give me a darn scare man.

ouh ya.. this darn afternoon was a bad one. HISTORY SUCKS MAN.i noe how to do the SEQ question lorr.. darn, dint have enuf time to do it. farking 1 hour, how do u expect me to finish up. everyone was like fark. those elective geography pple also. Mdm Gowri is going to give them a bad scolding including 10000 LINES!!! LOL. GD LUCK TO U ELECTIVE GEOG PEEPS. ouh ya. if 5N1 and 5N2 peeps are gonna pass our elec history, DE ROZA is going to treat us each a pizze meal. *slurps* wonder if i fail the paper and everyone's gonna whack me.=X lols... haizz.... weisen lost his digi cam. = ( i almost faint when i saw his sms. duhzzz... haiz. guess he's not going to eat in sch again le bahh... darn. WHO THE PHUCK STOLE HIS DIGI CAM IS GONNA GET IT FRM ME. well. don try me. i am one violent kia. =D if u wanna try, admit who u are then. hah. hmm, cheer up man. hope u get it over soon k? and DEDICATED TO MY HAMSTER ANGELA YAM. pls DO NT TRY TO SEE MY HP DE SMS OK. I AM NT SMSING MY BF OK... LOL. y u so interested siahh... hah..

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2005-02-23T21:02:00.000+08:00

i dono wat the phuck is wrong with me. haven told my parents bout the o lvl fee.. raising myself. haix.. its phucking wrong.. something's wrong... =~~~~~~~~~~ down with selfish pple. i dint get my share of history notes. u guys dint help me to keep.shall rem for that.

i'm suay today. bump into the lamp post todae. nose bleed.( it was bleeding like flowing tap lor!!!) who can be mroe suay than me?! dizzy like phuck! ez-link card spoil. couldnt tap it. why the phuck is every thing going against me? have i did sumthing wrong again? Ong thiam lye says money is nt a problem for o lvl fee. of cos he said so. he earn, where my parent don earn that much. its a problem to me. a big one.

i dono wth wrong's with me. but i am stiu happie as i use to be =D

[[sadist yet happie]]

life

2005-02-23T17:23:00.000+08:00

woots.. sup dude... haix... my leg is freaking pain.. OMG my cousin is at mah house messing up again. she's yung yet mature... help to kip toys.. haha.. ouh ya...dead for the both tests todae.. phuck... studied yet cant do.. haiz... nvm its over...

ltr update again.. sians...

i luv u guys!!

2005-02-22T21:36:00.000+08:00

wei sen!!! thankiews wor.. for helping me my blog.. =D~~~~~ kinda feeling happy todae. but sad at sum times... due to some situatuions when i cant handle.. but i learn to be cheerful! hah! i luv u guys out there who help me along the way. thankiews!!!

school's abit boring todae. becos of the test. i doubt i can make it lerr.. hais. i sms during the test, that stupid vale dint see... kena scolding todae for nth, slam with empty offences. haha. nvm!!! current mood sibei sian...

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2005-02-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

lost in my own world of confusions. u break my heart u did. its in millions. though u paste it back, its nt one again. scars are all over. nth could fill the cracks of mah heart. i hate u, yes i do.

i am sad. damn sad.

2005-02-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

i am feeling grey. i am lost in the confusions. i am no longer wat i am. its empty in me. it has all ended.

weehee

2005-02-20T21:30:00.000+08:00

street culture

...

xDDDD

sian

freak out

argh

haii

OMG

missing him

missing him

omgomg

omg.sadden

wrong timing

haiiiii

...

zzzzzzzz

zzzzz

zzzzzzzz

...

blah

fark shit

poisoned

haiiiii

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

faint

sadden

fug it

zzzzzz

siansssssss

argggggggggggggg

sians

faint

...

omg

#*$&(%&#*%&)%

wat th heck

ahhhhhh

=S

nonsense

sucky

pain!!

faints

=P

as usual

hmmm

=(

cold

yawns

i am sad

yuck

haiii

boo

haii

same old routine

linkin park numb/encore (feat. jay-z)

boots.

tuning into jay

bah! my foolishness is killing miie!

siansationsss

zzzz

lucky or unlucky. ferr u to judge.

strees out!

o lvls release

street culture

haix

jus some quotes

gastrich arhhhh

gastric!!!

omg.

DuHz

....

life

i luv u guys!!

.....

i am sad. damn sad.

weehee

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